Besides attending the game store two or three times a week, socializing feels nonexistent for me.

[Markness]

It's Friday night and you have a home to go to.

But your expectation is that 'going out,' being
somewhere other than home is necessary for
a happy/successful life.

But apparently I need to “take charge” of my life.

 

[tree]

But apparently I need to “take charge” of my life.

You do keep saying that you want change and
don't know how to get that going.l

 

[Markness]

You do keep saying that you want change and
don't know how to get that going.l

I do what other people suggest I do if it’s something I feel capable of doing but my efforts tend to either have disappointing results or they will seem to work at first but then suddenly fizzle out.

 

[tree]

Yes, you get disappointed when the effort doesn't result
in an immediate all-over change.

Fizzle out is the way you describe having conversations, too.

And you continue to be surprised that small change/improvement
(incremental progress) counts for anything.

 

[Markness]

Yes, you get disappointed when the effort doesn't result
in an immediate all-over change.

Fizzle out is the way you describe having conversations, too.

And you continue to be surprised that small change/improvement
(incremental progress) counts for anything.

Do I need to just believe the incremental progress will eventually lead to something?

 

[tree]

Do I need to just believe the incremental progress will eventually lead to something?

You might ask your mother to recall how you learned to walk.

This is a relatively metaphorical answer to your question.
I don't expect you will be asking your mother how you learned to walk.

 

[Markness]

You might ask your mother to recall how you learned to walk.

This is a relatively metaphorical answer to your question.
I don't expect you will be asking your mother how you learned to walk.

I remember when I could finally ride a bike, swim, and tie my shoes. All three things took a lot of attempts and I felt I could never do them for the longest times. It was like something wasn’t aligning in my thought processes but one day for each thing, it was like something in my brain finally “clicked.”

Socialization, for some reason, just feels much more complex and anxiety inducing for me.

 

[tree]

There's a limited number of reactions you'll get from a bicycle.
Interacting with humans there's more potential for variety.

 

[Markness]

It doesn’t matter if someone verbally rejects me or physically harms me. The pain from both feels the same to me.