Almost year in and having difficulties

[Joel I]

It's the anniversary tomorrow of my relationship with my partner but we are having difficulties. I got a text message this morning if I don't stop talking about something the relationship is over.
I've run out of my antidepressant a month ago and starting to feel aggressive and suicidal again. I have to wait a couple of days before seeing my psychiatrist so I can get more. He doesn't understand what I go through and I can't explain it to him.

 

[midlife aspie]

Does your partner know why you talk about the subject? If it is really important, it should matter to your SO. If she/he is simply getting annoyed with you, it seem as though your concerns are not that important, add to that the fact that they had to tell you this in a text. For what it is worth, my wife and I never discuss anything truly important via text. We believe that all matters of importance should be discussed in person, or barring that, actual speech on the phone.

 

[Joel I]

We generally talk face to face about it and I've decided it's not worth it now, I'll just stew about it for months. Our conflict is about beliefs and I'm very stubborn.

 

[Judge]

Ideological disagreements/beliefs in a relationship? Tragic...yet probably more common than not.

Such a dynamic always makes me think of the marriage of James Carville and Mary Matalin. Two professional political operatives on opposite sides who I can't imagine being married to one another. But they are. Defies logic, gravity...and just about everything else known to the human condition.

Strange to think that for all my failed relationships, ideological discussions, let alone disagreements never actually came up.

http://www.usnews.com/opinion/artic...nd-mary-matalin-dish-on-politics-and-marriage

http://www.cbsnews.com/news/love-war-with-james-carville-and-mary-matalin/

 

[Joel I]

Thank you I'm trying not caring about it, on the surface cause it still pains me but too scared. I'm going back on meds soon so in a while I'll be back to normal.

 

[watersprite]

I hope you are okay soon Joel l. That scared feeling is the worst. Take everything easy for a while if you can.

- k