That’s the story of my life. I don’t have issues and I don’t have problems, just as the world keeps changing I have to also keep adapting and changing to suit the new conditions. People often ask me how I manage to stay so happy and so positive all the time and I always answer with some lame humorous comment because to try and explain how it really works would take a serious conversation.
I have no attachment to my past and I have no preconception of how my future should be. I live in the now. As circumstances change I can drop my whole life on a whim and start something completely new, and I’ve done this many times. So even when my whole world gets turned upside down I feel little sense of loss or regret, I just look at what I need to do in order to get what I want and get on with it.
Very few people seem to be like this, I think I might be missing a gene or two in there somewhere, I also never get lonely.
I like the parable of the monkey getting caught with it’s hand stuck in the olive jar, it’s hand wouldn’t be stuck if it would just let go of the olives.
Letting go of old concepts and ideas is often more difficult than letting go of possessions or social relationships.
For me the new reality of the moment is that I think I’ve become nocturnal. My whole world got tipped upside down a few years back when a doctor prescribed me some SSRIs. I only took them for 3 months but they completely destroyed a lifetime of good sleep habits. I still fall asleep almost immediately but I started waking up again just 3 hours later, wide awake. You don’t last long on only 3 hours sleep so naturally 6 hours or so later I’d be exhausted and need to go back to bed. Lucky I don’t have to work or this would have been truly debilitating, or perhaps the cycles persisted for so long simply because I wasn’t forced to counter them.
Either way, for a few years I’ve had serious sleep problems. I started sleeping a full 8 hours one or two nights a week and that has slowly improved over the last couple of years. Now I get a good sleep about 5 nights a week then I’ll land in another cycle of only sleeping and being awake for a few hours at a time. When stories started to come out about people suffering Long Covid that really resonated with me, but the timing of this happening to me when I took those drugs is too coincidental to ignore.
When you’re only able to sleep in short bursts you’re perpetually low on energy and not capable of doing much, and as it drags on and on you become capable of less and less. Now that I’m getting a good sleep more often I’m starting to get energy and enthusiasm back again too.
Recently I’ve noticed another pattern within myself. Every time I try to get back in the habit of sleeping at night and being awake during the day I seem to trigger another bout of poor sleep, so instead I’m enjoying being nocturnal. I seem to sleep fine from 10 in the morning to 6 in the evening and the night times are so quiet and peaceful. The only sounds right now are my clock ticking and the sound of my fingers on the keyboard.
I also like doing my grocery shopping at night. One of the major grocery chains has a shop open through the night, normally during the day this would be a bugger of a place to get to due to traffic but at 2 in the morning it’s only 10 minutes down the road. It’s also nice shopping when the place is near empty and you don’t feel rushed.
I have no attachment to my past and I have no preconception of how my future should be. I live in the now. As circumstances change I can drop my whole life on a whim and start something completely new, and I’ve done this many times. So even when my whole world gets turned upside down I feel little sense of loss or regret, I just look at what I need to do in order to get what I want and get on with it.
Very few people seem to be like this, I think I might be missing a gene or two in there somewhere, I also never get lonely.
I like the parable of the monkey getting caught with it’s hand stuck in the olive jar, it’s hand wouldn’t be stuck if it would just let go of the olives.Letting go of old concepts and ideas is often more difficult than letting go of possessions or social relationships.
For me the new reality of the moment is that I think I’ve become nocturnal. My whole world got tipped upside down a few years back when a doctor prescribed me some SSRIs. I only took them for 3 months but they completely destroyed a lifetime of good sleep habits. I still fall asleep almost immediately but I started waking up again just 3 hours later, wide awake. You don’t last long on only 3 hours sleep so naturally 6 hours or so later I’d be exhausted and need to go back to bed. Lucky I don’t have to work or this would have been truly debilitating, or perhaps the cycles persisted for so long simply because I wasn’t forced to counter them.
Either way, for a few years I’ve had serious sleep problems. I started sleeping a full 8 hours one or two nights a week and that has slowly improved over the last couple of years. Now I get a good sleep about 5 nights a week then I’ll land in another cycle of only sleeping and being awake for a few hours at a time. When stories started to come out about people suffering Long Covid that really resonated with me, but the timing of this happening to me when I took those drugs is too coincidental to ignore.
When you’re only able to sleep in short bursts you’re perpetually low on energy and not capable of doing much, and as it drags on and on you become capable of less and less. Now that I’m getting a good sleep more often I’m starting to get energy and enthusiasm back again too.
Recently I’ve noticed another pattern within myself. Every time I try to get back in the habit of sleeping at night and being awake during the day I seem to trigger another bout of poor sleep, so instead I’m enjoying being nocturnal. I seem to sleep fine from 10 in the morning to 6 in the evening and the night times are so quiet and peaceful. The only sounds right now are my clock ticking and the sound of my fingers on the keyboard.
I also like doing my grocery shopping at night. One of the major grocery chains has a shop open through the night, normally during the day this would be a bugger of a place to get to due to traffic but at 2 in the morning it’s only 10 minutes down the road. It’s also nice shopping when the place is near empty and you don’t feel rushed.
