IsolaStrano
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I have been struggling my whole life with, well, the world of other people. I have not really figured out why, not until quite recently. Asperger's has been on my radar for a long time, but I have to admit I had a pretty narrow and stereotypical understanding of it, until something triggered me to find out more. Actually, it might have been meeting my first adult with AS diagnosis and noticing I felt strange kinship with him. Also, I have been around a couple of people who present much more "textbook aspie" than I do, so I have a feeling the comparison might have made me oblivious. Also, where I'm from, neurodiversity, especially in adults, is very much overlooked to this day.
I'm a woman, almost 40, married to another woman and living an expat life in the US.
My wife, who works with young adults, always did say that I appear to be a bit on the spectrum in her opinion. I have never lived full time with any partner before, and she does see more of the behaviors I've been trying to hide most of my life than anyone else has, apart from my parents. The most pervasive thing about is my rigidity. I am very preoccupied with the preciseness, logic and fairness of things. I get angry about things not being logical. I feel compelled to always present an opposing view, even if I agree. To be fair. I get upset over things people have a hard time understanding. And I'm easily overwhelmed by too much going on. People, music, lights, temperature, clothes etc. And when it really gets too overwhelming, I shut down. I may be repeating a few words, typically something like "I can't" and make nonsensical movements. I could go on all day, and I'm not at all sure which things are relevant. I have diagnosed ADHD, also quite recent.
Maybe that's enough for now.
I'm a woman, almost 40, married to another woman and living an expat life in the US.
My wife, who works with young adults, always did say that I appear to be a bit on the spectrum in her opinion. I have never lived full time with any partner before, and she does see more of the behaviors I've been trying to hide most of my life than anyone else has, apart from my parents. The most pervasive thing about is my rigidity. I am very preoccupied with the preciseness, logic and fairness of things. I get angry about things not being logical. I feel compelled to always present an opposing view, even if I agree. To be fair. I get upset over things people have a hard time understanding. And I'm easily overwhelmed by too much going on. People, music, lights, temperature, clothes etc. And when it really gets too overwhelming, I shut down. I may be repeating a few words, typically something like "I can't" and make nonsensical movements. I could go on all day, and I'm not at all sure which things are relevant. I have diagnosed ADHD, also quite recent.
Maybe that's enough for now.
I always felt a kinship with other people with autism and I remember feeling like I belong more with these kind of people than normal people. I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of the people I hung around with were on the spectrum one way or another Lol 
