I have never been diagnosed with Asbergers, but i am self diagnosed.
In the last week, it has dawned on me that i was very weird around women.
It would be a long time ago, around 15 to 20 years ago. I didn't directly stalk them, but i would move closer to them for some reason that i cannot understand. I never had a real girlfriend and maybe i thought that this would be as close as i could get to one. Bizzare, freaky behaviour that only now, i am genuinely ashamed about. At my local bar/pub, i did that quite alot and people, including bar staff, would pull me away from them. At the time, i never realised that i was doing anything wrong. Even my work colleagues called me a total freak, but it went in one ear and out the other.
Looking back on it, i could have been in trouble with the law, but fortunately, that never happened.
Right now, i can't actually sleep because i am thinking about it, shamefull creepy thing to do back in my 20's.
I don't have any intention of doing this ever again and haven't done so in a long time, but the guilt and total shame has only just hit me now and is affecting me a lot. My heart rate is up all day, my stomach feels twisted and i have problems sleeping all week.
Has anyone had this problem or what can i do to get back to normal.
I live in a village outside town, so i am pretty sure people have labelled me a stalker, which is freaking me out.
In the last week, it has dawned on me that i was very weird around women.
It would be a long time ago, around 15 to 20 years ago. I didn't directly stalk them, but i would move closer to them for some reason that i cannot understand. I never had a real girlfriend and maybe i thought that this would be as close as i could get to one. Bizzare, freaky behaviour that only now, i am genuinely ashamed about. At my local bar/pub, i did that quite alot and people, including bar staff, would pull me away from them. At the time, i never realised that i was doing anything wrong. Even my work colleagues called me a total freak, but it went in one ear and out the other.
Looking back on it, i could have been in trouble with the law, but fortunately, that never happened.
Right now, i can't actually sleep because i am thinking about it, shamefull creepy thing to do back in my 20's.
I don't have any intention of doing this ever again and haven't done so in a long time, but the guilt and total shame has only just hit me now and is affecting me a lot. My heart rate is up all day, my stomach feels twisted and i have problems sleeping all week.
Has anyone had this problem or what can i do to get back to normal.
I live in a village outside town, so i am pretty sure people have labelled me a stalker, which is freaking me out.