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Misery

Misery

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  • Misery
    Jay.webp


    Got this today, my collection of odd plush dolls grows. This is the third really limited edition one out of the group. Glad I didnt miss out on the chance to get her. Her name is Jay, the thing she's holding is a skateboard, though it's hard to tell in this awkward lighting. This room isnt the best place to take photos.
    Misery
    Why is screen recording and video editing software so spectacularly irritating to use? Like seriously, this seems to be a universal trait of the whole process. And not a bit of it ever quite works correctly. Particularly OBS, I have a very deep loathing for that one.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    Yup! OBS demands that I reset all of the parameters for my video sources every time or nothing works! And I swear it's different every time. All I want to do is get my microscope up on screen! 😾
    Misery
    "I should not have clicked on that" is something I find myself saying more and more in recent times.
    Misery
    I think I need a break from this place. For my own mental health. Seeya later.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Hope to see you on the flipside when you're feeling better.
    Misery
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    Ya know I sat down with the intent to draw another character for practice. And then I did this instead. I'm not sure why.
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    We, alot of times, create things that are on our mind/heart. It just calls us. And there is a reason for it. Like anything in life. Sometimes it just doesn't make sense at first. I like drawing like that, myself. By letting my heart/mind guide me. Less stressful that way. There is more flow, just drawing as you go.

    Anyway. It's a very lovely drawing, @Misery
    Misery
    I realize recently just how much weight I lost... flat as a board, and a tendency to sort of collapse inward if leaning back or lying down. In that haze of depression, I had just... not entirely noticed that. I'm not about to try to regain it though. Learning much healthier eating recently. Turns out, some veggies and such can be darned good when prepared right.
    Misery
    Girl3.webp

    So here's today's creation. This took 1/4th of the time the previous one did. Ya know, getting some real feedback while I was at the art tutoring place has really helped me with motivation and such. They particularly liked how I did the hair on the previous ones. I dont have a name for her yet.
    Rocco
    I admire your creations and think they are fabulous!
    Misery
    Misery
    Thanks! I've got a LOT more fractal art than what I've shown on this forum, look up the username ScrapFractals on DeviantArt if you want to see them (I dont know if I can just post a link here or not).
    Misery
    PaleThing.webp


    Well that was infuriating. I'm aware there's a slight misalignment there, but fixing something like that in a fractal is much more complicated than fixing normal digital art. I got it as close as I could without going mad.
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    Misty Avich
    I can't see any misalignment
    Judge
    Judge
    I can appreciate such frustration. The two parallel lines that span across the center horizontally do not match up beyond the center. With the right portion of the parallel lines appearing to be slightly further apart compared to the left portion. Other elements seem to be uneven in terms of left versus right axis as well. But with fractals being so anti-aliased, is absolute symmetry even possible?

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    Misery
    Misery
    Absolute symmetry within a final rendered image is tough to do, not just because of anti-aliasing, but also because of the camera, and the fact that many of these things exist in a 3D space even if they dont seem to (including this one). Though in this case, it's because in attempting to force symmetry, I spun something around when I should have spun AND flipped it. Just mangled it instead.
    Misery
    So, small positive update, my weight stabilized finally after my mood improved and I started eating properly again. In total I lost 38 pounds. I mean, I had kinda wanted to lose some, but... not like that. I've gotten used to really not eating much though, so eating enough to stay stable is a challenge.
    Misery
    SwirlJ.webp

    Holy freaking heck I thought the PC was going to explode while rendering this. The mouse cursor lags 2 seconds behind and just blinks all over the place, the keyboard barely works at all, and at one point it took like a full 20 seconds for a click to register. No matter how powerful my PC is, it's never enough.
    Misery
    Okay, note to self: dont try to fight my spinning sleep cycle. I tried to break it. This turned out to not be one of my better ideas. It made sense at the time.
    Misery
    Jeweled3.webp


    No idea what to say about this one.
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    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    l agree, interesting to look at.
    Trophonius
    Trophonius
    Did you make it? Looks awesome. If animated could be the final boss of a rpg game (like in Chaos in Aria of Sorrow, or Giygas in Earthbound).
    Misery
    Misery
    @Trophonius Yep, I make all of these. I do actually intend on using them in a game design, though fractal animation is very difficult and extremely resource intensive.
    Misery
    I dont get why I can use horribly complicated, esoteric fractal apps with UIs designed by maniacs, and work with them with ease, but if I try to use any standard image editing app (whether it's Photoshop or, you know, anything else) I get lost and frustrated within like 20 seconds. Must calm down, dont stab anything...
    Misery
    The less I engage with the internet as a whole, the more I'm wondering why in the world I ever spent so much time doing so in the first place. None of it is a good time, nor is it accomplishing anything at all. Going to just yank this cable out for awhile, see how that feels.
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    thejuice
    Reminds me of the cartoon illustration of the stick man and the cliff, demonstrating the easy decisions/ hard life and hard decisions/ easy life phenomenon.
    Hazel_1914
    Hazel_1914
    As much bad news as there is, and worse people, I hope you enjoy going out rambling a bit in the weather and meeting folks face to face. A book by Cal Newport, Digital Minimalism, would probably be a good read for you right around now.
    MC1Rcat
    MC1Rcat
    I recommend it. I go thru phases of being totally unplugged. It refreshes my spirit & perspective on the world & humanity. It's good to take breaks & see only thru your own eyes/ perspective & leave behind the lens of the internet & media. The only voice that comes to your mind is your own & you can just BE. I hope you have fun exploring in the winter wonderland outdoors :)
    Misery
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    Got this today. I'd been trying to find this for a few months now, it's a very recent release, very popular, and hard to find. I wasnt expecting it to arrive for another couple of weeks yet. It's also very heavy.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    My friend Anna loves board games and would love that. If so I will show her the picture to see if she knows it.
    Misery
    There are times when I really hate tech in general. 99% of those times are when I have to deal with some dumb nonsense from some account I shouldnt need to have. Worst is password related stuff, I then get to open like 3 email accounts I never use and connect my phone and, I dunno, sacrifice a goat or something to fix it.
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    thejuice
    Can't remember password. Ok. Enter email to receive code to unlock. Can't remember email password. Enter mobile number to recieve code to unlock email to get your account back. Old phone number so you can't access email. Okay, we need you to send a photograph of your passport to prove you are. Pray the website doesn't get hacked and you don't get your identity stolen..
    Trophonius
    Trophonius
    Yes, I hate that so much. My regular login process looks like this:

    1. Try to log in -> "Wrong password"
    2. Try different passwords -> "Wrong password" x5
    3. Forgot your password? -> Send recovery email to mail I no longer use
    4. Try to log in in old email -> "Wrong password"
    5. Try different passwords -> "Wrong password" x5
    6. Forgot your password? -> Send recovery email to another recovery email account
    Trophonius
    Trophonius
    7. Open new recovery email -> Create new password for old email (I will forget)
    8. Open old email -> Find recovery password for the site I wanted
    9. Attempt to create a new password -> "Password is too easy, use numbers, symbols, etc."
    10. Attempt to create a complex password -> "You already use that password before"

    At that point I give up.
    Misery
    LayeredAltered.webp


    So I made this today, I learned a whole bunch of new things doing it. I also spent like a whole hour just trying to get that repeating heart shape in there.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Looks like delightfully quiet and magical fireworks.
    Misery
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    Look at the size of this box. Would you believe that's a board game? Those weird giant cards to the left are from that. There are so many of them. This hobby continues to amaze me. Horribly expensive though. But this one is soooo good. And no, it doesnt fit on any shelf.
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    FilterFreq
    That looks awesome. If I had more IRL friends I think I'd be into those as well :D
    Misery
    Misery
    @FilterFreq I play these all solo myself, actually... modern board games very often have solo modes, or they might be co-op (so it's players against an automated system) so you can multihand. This one is a boss battler (real common type), so it's players VS a boss deck that plays itself.
    Misery
    Misery
    Complexity can vary wildly from one game to the next. If you want to see some good examples, look up games like Mage Knight, Sentinels of the Multiverse, and Marvel Champions (all of which are superb). Bloody low character limit.
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