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Misery

Misery

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  • Misery
    ArmoredBox2MultipliedDeepChasmGreenShineBrot~.webp


    I just discovered I can turn my previous art things into color mappings with these. Also this is the resolution the previous one was supposed to be in.
    Misery
    ArmoredCubeZoomHole2Flashlight~.webp


    Tiny teaser of a major project I started today. I've never tried something like this before and it is likely to take a few weeks. Also it's hard to get a proper "flashlight" effect in this fractal app. An unlit version of this same image also exists.
    Misery
    onelab_1757686408447.webp


    Art thing #2. Both this and the last one were created out of the same initial fractal image. Now my neck & back hurt, that's enough for today I think. Arms hurt too, because why not.
    Misery
    Well whaddya know, there is indeed a limit to just how much power I can get out of this PC. Generally fairly clear that I've gone too far when a single 2560x1440 fractal image needs a full hour to MAYBE render. I had to disable TDR just to make it even possible. Hopefully the accursed thing finishes without crashing.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Do not try playing Microsoft Flight Simulator at maximized settings on that machine.
    Crabcore
    Crabcore
    A lot of those algorithms can definitely be optimized, but it's pretty intense. I suck at math, so I wouldn't be very good at that part :D
    Misery
    I've got to stop going onto the internet when depressed. It really doesnt help. I cant make progress on anything if I keep doing bloody stupid things that specifically make it much harder to do anything.
    Misery
    It's a good thing I dont have arachnophobia, there's just an astonishing amount of spiders out here. Walk outside to go water the plants, walk through 3 webs. Go to turn the water on, spiders on the handle. Grab the nozzle, get into position, spiders fall off of it. Turn around, another spider sorta Tarzan-swings past my face somehow. Some packages from Amazon on the porch, surprise, there's spiders on them.
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    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    I think cute is just the right word for some of them.

    1751313346075.webp
    Misery
    Misery
    @Rodafina Ya know, the close-up photos you often post are really rather amazing. Do you take them yourself?
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    @Misery, I am happy to hear that.

    Yes, they are photos I have taken. Macro photography is a particular fascination of mine.
    Misery
    Jay.webp


    Got this today, my collection of odd plush dolls grows. This is the third really limited edition one out of the group. Glad I didnt miss out on the chance to get her. Her name is Jay, the thing she's holding is a skateboard, though it's hard to tell in this awkward lighting. This room isnt the best place to take photos.
    Misery
    Why is screen recording and video editing software so spectacularly irritating to use? Like seriously, this seems to be a universal trait of the whole process. And not a bit of it ever quite works correctly. Particularly OBS, I have a very deep loathing for that one.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    Yup! OBS demands that I reset all of the parameters for my video sources every time or nothing works! And I swear it's different every time. All I want to do is get my microscope up on screen! 😾
    Misery
    "I should not have clicked on that" is something I find myself saying more and more in recent times.
    Misery
    I think I need a break from this place. For my own mental health. Seeya later.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Hope to see you on the flipside when you're feeling better.
    Misery
    20250404_021239.webp


    Ya know I sat down with the intent to draw another character for practice. And then I did this instead. I'm not sure why.
    Azeth
    Azeth
    We, alot of times, create things that are on our mind/heart. It just calls us. And there is a reason for it. Like anything in life. Sometimes it just doesn't make sense at first. I like drawing like that, myself. By letting my heart/mind guide me. Less stressful that way. There is more flow, just drawing as you go.

    Anyway. It's a very lovely drawing, @Misery
    Misery
    I realize recently just how much weight I lost... flat as a board, and a tendency to sort of collapse inward if leaning back or lying down. In that haze of depression, I had just... not entirely noticed that. I'm not about to try to regain it though. Learning much healthier eating recently. Turns out, some veggies and such can be darned good when prepared right.
    Misery
    Girl3.webp

    So here's today's creation. This took 1/4th of the time the previous one did. Ya know, getting some real feedback while I was at the art tutoring place has really helped me with motivation and such. They particularly liked how I did the hair on the previous ones. I dont have a name for her yet.
    Rocco
    I admire your creations and think they are fabulous!
    Misery
    Misery
    Thanks! I've got a LOT more fractal art than what I've shown on this forum, look up the username ScrapFractals on DeviantArt if you want to see them (I dont know if I can just post a link here or not).
    Misery
    PaleThing.webp


    Well that was infuriating. I'm aware there's a slight misalignment there, but fixing something like that in a fractal is much more complicated than fixing normal digital art. I got it as close as I could without going mad.
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    Misty Avich
    I can't see any misalignment
    Judge
    Judge
    I can appreciate such frustration. The two parallel lines that span across the center horizontally do not match up beyond the center. With the right portion of the parallel lines appearing to be slightly further apart compared to the left portion. Other elements seem to be uneven in terms of left versus right axis as well. But with fractals being so anti-aliased, is absolute symmetry even possible?

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    Misery
    Misery
    Absolute symmetry within a final rendered image is tough to do, not just because of anti-aliasing, but also because of the camera, and the fact that many of these things exist in a 3D space even if they dont seem to (including this one). Though in this case, it's because in attempting to force symmetry, I spun something around when I should have spun AND flipped it. Just mangled it instead.
    Misery
    So, small positive update, my weight stabilized finally after my mood improved and I started eating properly again. In total I lost 38 pounds. I mean, I had kinda wanted to lose some, but... not like that. I've gotten used to really not eating much though, so eating enough to stay stable is a challenge.
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