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Metalhead

Metalhead

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  • Metalhead
    I want power over my emotions and my kneejerk reactions. The power to keep them all in check.
    Judge
    Judge
    Keep trying. So many are now "behind enemy lines" in our own backyard. We must adjust to survive in such an environment.

    A scenario right out of the film. "Invasion Of The Body Snatchers"
    Metalhead
    I feel like getting on a plane and going somewhere warm.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I just want to go on a plane like every other tom dick and harry. Not been on one since Easter 2001 23 years. Get the hell out of NYC for even a few days I am sick of NYC.
    Metalhead
    I wish I could go through the rest of my life without having another emotional meltdown.
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    It's difficult. I've had issues regulating them, as I've started to discover my deeply buried feelings about alot of things. A day at a time.

    But sometimes we just need to release. Give ourselves a time to grieve. A time to be angry. A time to be happy. Or the emotional pressure cooker will explode.
    Metalhead
    I apologize for my drama earlier this week.
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    We all will go through rough patches. No big deal. But remember. We have the potential to be our best, when we are at our worst.
    Metalhead
    Here is an update. My meds got readjusted a couple of hours ago. I really was frigging crazy the last couple of days. And a lot of that was likely chemical.
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    Gerontius
    Gerontius
    With the mess of the last few days you don't need a medication problem on top of that. Glad you got it situated. The forum needs you & we're all glad you're here.
    Misery
    Misery
    Meds gone wrong can be really freaking harsh. Been there before. Have you come down from it a bit, then? Less intense?
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    I started my increased dosage of my anxiety meds that my nurse practitioner prescribed. Only for me to have some complications myself. I feel calm. But I felt horrible, like I was sick, when I woke up today.
    Metalhead
    My deep depression is driving people away from me. I should start pretending everything is OK and start saving my sadness for my therapist sessions instead.
    tree
    tree
    I thought you were going to consult your psychiatrist re: medication review.
    Did that happen?
    Or is it scheduled?
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    It is scheduled.
    Metalhead
    I just want to quit my job and spend my remaining days playing games.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    That does sound nice. You could start a post on what would you spend all your time doing, might be interesting. I love cooking, l love movies, l love writing, specially, character development.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Seeing as my days alive are numbered, I may as well enjoy what little time I have left.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Right on that, live your life for you, not trying to pacify or please parents or friends or partners. l have had to relearn that a couple of times over.
    Metalhead
    I am going to slow down on my movie buying and save up for Uber rides to social events. Starting right now. All the movies in the world do nothing to ease my isolation.
    Metalhead
    I just severed ties with a couple of people who were more concerned about me being concerned than they were about the crap going on in the world these days. I am crazy because I am worried about my future livelihood? Forget those people.
    Metalhead
    Stop the world, I want to step off. The vacuum of space. The endless abyss of nothingness.
    Metalhead
    Frankly, I don't have the strength to go to work every day, and then go home to spend every afternoon, evening and weekend in isolation. I can't keep this up any longer.
    Metalhead
    All hope is lost. Evil has won. Might as well end my life now before they get around to it.
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    Tell me. Do YOU think these works are evil? Or is it because others around you say so?

    A mind influenced by the words of others, can be a troubling thing sometimes. Especially if those words are laced in hidden malicious intent.

    But nothing is worth the cost of suicide.
    oregano
    oregano
    It is better to die on your feet than to live on your knees. -Emiliano Zapata, Mexican revolutionary

    The way I interpret that is to go out fighting in a blaze of glory is far better than killing yourself in a dark room out of fear. Fear makes you live (and die) on your knees, while courage lets you die a noble death.
    Metalhead
    I want to feel peace within myself, but instead I feel a lack of hope. I feel defeated. I am defeated.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    May you embody the phoenix, and rise again.

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