I've got to stop going onto the internet when depressed. It really doesnt help. I cant make progress on anything if I keep doing bloody stupid things that specifically make it much harder to do anything.
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It's a good thing I dont have arachnophobia, there's just an astonishing amount of spiders out here. Walk outside to go water the plants, walk through 3 webs. Go to turn the water on, spiders on the handle. Grab the nozzle, get into position, spiders fall off of it. Turn around, another spider sorta Tarzan-swings past my face somehow. Some packages from Amazon on the porch, surprise, there's spiders on them.
Got this today, my collection of odd plush dolls grows. This is the third really limited edition one out of the group. Glad I didnt miss out on the chance to get her. Her name is Jay, the thing she's holding is a skateboard, though it's hard to tell in this awkward lighting. This room isnt the best place to take photos.Why is screen recording and video editing software so spectacularly irritating to use? Like seriously, this seems to be a universal trait of the whole process. And not a bit of it ever quite works correctly. Particularly OBS, I have a very deep loathing for that one."I should not have clicked on that" is something I find myself saying more and more in recent times.I think I need a break from this place. For my own mental health. Seeya later.
Here's today's weird thing. I have no idea what to say about this.
Ya know I sat down with the intent to draw another character for practice. And then I did this instead. I'm not sure why.I realize recently just how much weight I lost... flat as a board, and a tendency to sort of collapse inward if leaning back or lying down. In that haze of depression, I had just... not entirely noticed that. I'm not about to try to regain it though. Learning much healthier eating recently. Turns out, some veggies and such can be darned good when prepared right.
So here's today's creation. This took 1/4th of the time the previous one did. Ya know, getting some real feedback while I was at the art tutoring place has really helped me with motivation and such. They particularly liked how I did the hair on the previous ones. I dont have a name for her yet.
I admire your creations and think they are fabulous!
Well that was infuriating. I'm aware there's a slight misalignment there, but fixing something like that in a fractal is much more complicated than fixing normal digital art. I got it as close as I could without going mad.So, small positive update, my weight stabilized finally after my mood improved and I started eating properly again. In total I lost 38 pounds. I mean, I had kinda wanted to lose some, but... not like that. I've gotten used to really not eating much though, so eating enough to stay stable is a challenge.
Holy freaking heck I thought the PC was going to explode while rendering this. The mouse cursor lags 2 seconds behind and just blinks all over the place, the keyboard barely works at all, and at one point it took like a full 20 seconds for a click to register. No matter how powerful my PC is, it's never enough.Okay, note to self: dont try to fight my spinning sleep cycle. I tried to break it. This turned out to not be one of my better ideas. It made sense at the time.
No idea what to say about this one.I dont get why I can use horribly complicated, esoteric fractal apps with UIs designed by maniacs, and work with them with ease, but if I try to use any standard image editing app (whether it's Photoshop or, you know, anything else) I get lost and frustrated within like 20 seconds. Must calm down, dont stab anything...The less I engage with the internet as a whole, the more I'm wondering why in the world I ever spent so much time doing so in the first place. None of it is a good time, nor is it accomplishing anything at all. Going to just yank this cable out for awhile, see how that feels.
Got this today. I'd been trying to find this for a few months now, it's a very recent release, very popular, and hard to find. I wasnt expecting it to arrive for another couple of weeks yet. It's also very heavy.There are times when I really hate tech in general. 99% of those times are when I have to deal with some dumb nonsense from some account I shouldnt need to have. Worst is password related stuff, I then get to open like 3 email accounts I never use and connect my phone and, I dunno, sacrifice a goat or something to fix it. -
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