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UberScout

UberScout

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  • UberScout
    I got on Inform 7 and said "screw it, I'm just gonna start my first serious project, and I'm gonna make sure it gets released." Kiyoshi: Honor For Atonement" based on a Sengoku RPG role-playing, has begun production, and this time I will NOT be distracted by things that get my atten-- Oh cool, new American Dad episode!
    UberScout
    Been crazy about learning Japanese recently! And just Japan in general, honestly. I mean I always am but recently the spark has been pretty intense.
    UberScout
    Finally got myself a preroll. Didn't want to be so obsessed about it tbh but I've been having hayfever and it's been knocking me on my aft end since I woke up today. And I don't have Tylenol or anything like that handy or else I wouldn't be asking for it LOL! but I'm just glad I feel better. Now I have a question. My brain just had a happysplosion of serotonin, like REALLY powerful. Should I try making psi balls?
    Misery
    Misery
    Out of curiosity, do you take any sort of allergy meds? I ask because I remember just how torturous my own allergies were, back before I'd gotten started on proper allergy meds. Dunno what I'd do without that.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    My mother usually has OTC stuff at the ready for these things. I just forgot to ask her yesterday because I was so busy cleaning.
    UberScout
    MY BODY IS DESEPRATELY SEARCHING FOR RELIEF FROM THESE GOD FORSAKEN ALLERGIES!!!
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    It's gotta be hayfever. At first I thought it was seasonal
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    Try wetting the insides of your nostrils, it works. There's also an over the counter eye drop you can buy called Antistine Privine. Although it's an eye drop it's a drug, an antihistimine. Fast acting as it has direct access to your blood stream via your tear ducts. I used to suffer chronic hayfever.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Uuuuhh. Allergies are kicking my butt today. Got some flower coming soon hopefully after my mother gets back from donating plasma. I love how she looks out for me.
    UberScout
    Decided to start writing text adventures again. This time I'm gonna make sure something actually gets released and I don't end up holding myself back from anxiety due to certain forms of "ambience"...
    UberScout
    Fried pork chops for dinner. And they are C H O N K Y
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    Luca
    Pork (except for bacon and bologna) is one of the few foods I can't enjoy because it makes me sick.
    I wish I could have pork chops.
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    @Luca I had a friend who was actually allergic to pork.
    And it was a favorite of hers as a child.
    So she was sick fairly often, as a child.
    She figured it out later.
    UberScout
    OKAY SO YESTERDAY I ACCIDENTALLY GOT SO HIGH THAT, FOR SOME GOD ONLY KNOWS REASON, MY BRAIN DECIDED TO START THINKING THAT I WAS THE LAST PERSON IN THE UNIVERSE, AND THE UNIVERSE HAD ENDED. I DID NOT THINK THE HUMAN BRAIN COULD SCARE ITSELF IN SUCH A WAY. BUT I PROVED MYSELF WRONG. I AM GOING TO BE VERY CAREFUL FROM NOW ON AND I THINK MY DEPRESSION IS WAY, WAY WORSE THAN I PREVIOUSLY THOUGHT.
    Crabcore
    Crabcore
    That may or may not have to do with depression, it could just be too much weed. I know people who have had really similar scary experiences by smoking too much
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Yeah. Um. So, it turns out my friend Stick had a friend over while that happened. It didn't take me long to do the math when I came too. Thank God I was able to wake myself up!
    UberScout
    Aloe, glowing eyes: "You remember how to be careful waking up this way, right?" Me: "Mm."
    Aloe: "Hehe..."
    tree
    tree
    Another teaser.

    Just a hint of the experience.
    UberScout
    UberScout
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    "I know it's a little unconventional. You have to keep in mind this was something introduced by his step-dad, and even then, VERY carefully and at first in small doses."
    UberScout
    I think I just had sleep paralysis earlier! It was so strange, I was just relaxing with my Kirby plush and I fell asleep hugging him and suddenly, I felt like I couldn't move at all...! My mind was still wide awake but my body refused to move! I had to keep reminding myself I wasn't dead or being attacked by a demon or a spirit... but if it WAS a spirit what kind was it? What was it trying to do? What did it want?!
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    Luca
    Derealization is actually something I frequently experience too, but it doesn't resemble sleep paralysis. Derealization is more like when you feel like your life or surroundings aren't real, like you're living in a movie or you're walking around in a dream state when awake. Also common with PTSD. I also depersonalize which is when you feel like you're observing yourself in the third person.
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    Luca
    Derealization + depersonalizing would make you feel something to the effect of watching your life happen from the outside, like you were narrating a movie about yourself. This is something I experience a lot but I don't think I've discussed it much on here.
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    UberScout
    It started to feel like that at first. But then my mind got so confused. My body felt like it was indeed asleep, it was convinced that it was sleeping but my mind knew that IT was awake. Then suddenly it went from "Am I sleeping right now?" to "Am I dead? Am I in hell? Am I about to die? Is this what dying feels like?" Then suddenly it was like "TELL YOURSELF YOU'RE ALIVE NOW!!"
    UberScout
    That girl... I was talking to her yesterday and Maddog actually encouraged me to talk to her (read: autistic girl from the other day). So I did.... and this time she was really happy to see me, compared to the night before when she was overwhelmed to the point of crying, I found out she had been kicked out of her hotel room. She blew me a kiss when we finished talking... Hehe..
    UberScout
    UberScout
    I have to say, it's been a while...!
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    yellow_blue_betta_dragon_by_snowifer_dcz62i3-fullview.webp

    "Remember, girls love a guy who listens!"
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    Hoo, boy, I gotta tone down the need for weed a little. Little addicted, but just a little. It's all good though! I've been down this road before, I know all the shortcuts.
    Crabcore
    Crabcore
    The need for weed? Sounds like a game I used to play on Ps1
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Bruh you bout to start an ARG lmao
    UberScout
    Our friend brought over one of their own friends and when I introduced myself we talked for a bit and I found out she's autistic like me! She was kinda overwhelmed though, somebody she talked to on the phone was acting horrible to her... Is opportunity literally knocking at my door right now?! Or am I just crazy...
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    Heh yeah.



    Except I was told she has a...ahem... profession, she works in.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    People who peddle things or chemicals are no different. Just because people push/sell chemicals doesn't make them better then her no matter who she is. But l find that peddlers of substances seem to think they are better then others.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Oh, no no, it's not that. I mean honestly I really don't care, I'm just happy I found someone nearby to make friends with.
    UberScout
    Aloe: Last seen performing Reiki on me
    Markness
    Markness
    I wish I could have some. :(
    UberScout
    UberScout
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    "Well why didn't you just tell me earlier, goofball! All you had to do was ask :)"
    UberScout
    Once, I was lashed with a miscreants tongue,
    Twice, I bowed to a tyrants lungs
    Three times over did I pray to God
    Four times more I was herded with a prod
    Five be a count for the names been called
    Six be a number I was forced enthralled
    Seven sins deadly I was taught to look away
    Eight words spoken in the course of a day
    Nine, then ten, I was lashed once again
    Vengeance my drive, Reason I will send
    UberScout
    I CAN'T TRUST LIFE ANYMORE. AND IF I HAVE TO DO ANOTHER LOOP OF THIS YEAR AT THE BEGINNING OF 2023, I'LL BE BRUTALLY HONEST, I'D RATHER JUST KILL MYSELF! So, if I'm not online for more than a week after 2023 starts, you'll know what it means...
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    And yet, still my soul wishes to fight?
    Have I gone mad?
    Or have I simply taken on the same drive to survive as a wolf? Or a lion?
    Doesn't a mammal in the wilderness constantly prowl forward when their stomach is devoid of sustenance? If an animal can recognize that staying hungry for too long will lead them to an early grave, could not a human afflicted with the blessed curse of Autism do the same?
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Maybe madness is not limited to throwing one's thoughts to the wind. Maybe there is a good side to madness, if it can lead us to stay alive.
    Crabcore
    Crabcore
    You're stronger than you think. You've got this, hell or high water :sunglasses:
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