The Hardest Thing to Say: for Mom

Mom, I said that I kept this blog for you to read when you grew up. If it is now that you are ready to face the truth, then go on, this was made for you to know about what really happened with my life, the one you never truly saw. I can't believe that I am saying this to you, I had a hard time trying to lead with these topics myself.

I know you've always loved me (I guess). I know that you loved some of your sons differently. And I also knew since I developed my mind better, that if I presented myself, you wouldn't love me anymore.

All those offenses and curses you said to other groups of people, that were supposed to be general, were in fact shot directly to me. You hurt my feelings everyday, just with your thoughts about other life forms. I tried to prepare myself and you, so that in the moment you read this, at least some of that love you are now losing for me survived. That is a reason why I kept on improving myself, so that you could compare well, and never ever be disappointed of me as a daughter.

You will find videos, entries, or references in this blog. If you think something about it, you can say it to me, although I won't forgive you soon, because you shouldn't have thought before judging others that you might be judging your own sons.