Sometimes i am too present in my body, and the anxiety overwhelms me. Other times, mostly at night i reminisce about old times, and the few people who made me feel alive. I am thankful to those people who are not in my life anymore. When i remember them my life feels like a dream, or like it is already finished. I don't feel the anxiety, Just a remaining sadness mixed with happiness. And overwhelming love for everyone in my life currently.
I miss and love these few people so much. If they were not there i would not have the strength to go on with my life. I hope they take care and have a good life.
I sometimes want to die early. My life has always been alone and i am tired from shouldering all the pain of autism, anxiety, depression alone. I feel scared that one day the pain will be too much that i will start self harming. I Just want to die in peace. I am so tired.
I miss and love these few people so much. If they were not there i would not have the strength to go on with my life. I hope they take care and have a good life.
I sometimes want to die early. My life has always been alone and i am tired from shouldering all the pain of autism, anxiety, depression alone. I feel scared that one day the pain will be too much that i will start self harming. I Just want to die in peace. I am so tired.
