How do you feel today?

Christophe;38084 said:

I saw my Psychiatrist 2 days ago and i'll be taking another pill to add to my soup... She (Psychiatrist) said that I was on a 2nd level med and this new pill is a level 1 med. (whatever that means...) she was very nice to me and explained everything aout my condition to me...I don't remember most of it, but I do remember that she added ADHD to my long list of issues:
I suffer from the following: Aspergers, Major Depression, Major Anxiety, OCD, Something I can't remember right now (affraid of people and large crowds) (memory is awful) Bartonella desese, and now ADHD... what else can possibly be added to this list???!!! I've started to cut myself, just small cuts on my forearm that look like scratches from my dogs so I don't get caught... Everynight I go to bed and wish that I don't wake up tomorrow. And I wake up disapointed everyday. I've been off work since last year in June 2011 and I'm so bored!!!
I don't know what to do anymore. My parents arecoiming in a week and a half to come help out for the holidays because I can't take care of my own daughter! what kind of parent am I? I'm a bad father and husband to my wife. She is so patient with me but I can see that she is at her witz end... God I hope she does not leave me!!! I think that would be the end.
Does anyone know how I can get rid of all these issues? Is there an end to all this? I'm tired, exhausted, running on 1.5 to 5 hours of sleep a night (scattered) the most sleep I get in one shot is 45 minutes!!!
I WANT THIS TO BE OVER!!! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!

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