I feel like i don't deserve some of the things i have. But i believe in God and believe this life is a test. So i convince myself it is not a matter of deserving.
Maybe some people deserve the things i have but that is not my problem. Everything is up to God in life. I am trying to not take things granted.
Another thing is i sometimes feel suffocated around my parents, and dont want to see them. Nearly everytime i see them i want to get away from them. I feel like vomiting even though they are always nice to me but a bit overprotective. Thankfully i have my own house so i have the space to be on my own.
Otherwise i feel like vomiting all the time.
I am glad i never had a relationship and will never have a child. It is too late for me to learn some of the things i was not taught.
And my child would suffer in this world even more than me since they would inherit my autism. I am so glad i did not have a child and will never have one.
Sometimes when my friend says how great it is to have a child and whatever, i want to scream it into her face. It is a blessing i never had a child. I am SO blessed to not bring anyone into this life. What if that child cried for not being accepted, and asked me WHY did you bring me into this world?
And well, sometimes i wish i was not born as well. My parents should not have had a child. But it is not their fault because they were ignorant.
Maybe some people deserve the things i have but that is not my problem. Everything is up to God in life. I am trying to not take things granted.
Another thing is i sometimes feel suffocated around my parents, and dont want to see them. Nearly everytime i see them i want to get away from them. I feel like vomiting even though they are always nice to me but a bit overprotective. Thankfully i have my own house so i have the space to be on my own.
Otherwise i feel like vomiting all the time.
I am glad i never had a relationship and will never have a child. It is too late for me to learn some of the things i was not taught.
And my child would suffer in this world even more than me since they would inherit my autism. I am so glad i did not have a child and will never have one.
Sometimes when my friend says how great it is to have a child and whatever, i want to scream it into her face. It is a blessing i never had a child. I am SO blessed to not bring anyone into this life. What if that child cried for not being accepted, and asked me WHY did you bring me into this world?
And well, sometimes i wish i was not born as well. My parents should not have had a child. But it is not their fault because they were ignorant.
