Jleger91
Photo of me with my sister at my brothers wedding
The cats and dogs like me right now. Odie the cat is laying comfortably up in his spot and he's pawing at my hand and even licking me. He especially loves attention and the best way to do that is to play some Technotronic (pump the jam) and instantly I'm rolling around with him on the floor and rubbing his fat belly XD
The dogs are wagging their tails. I gave them attentions and some treats. They're laying down doing their thing. I have to remember that music helps me interact with them.
I was just out walking them. I had two at once (all small dogs) and I shut down right on the sidewalk, midway along the block. People say I let all the little things bother me. And so it was. I got upset because there was people walking further down the sidewalk, I got upset when cars drove by, I got upset because the Male dog kept trying to walk on my right, and then I'd have to adjust the leashes.
I'd express my anger with a groan and the dog heard that and got scared, so now he was stubborn and only moved with my permission - like stopping 2ft in front of my feet or stopping behind me so that I'd pull him and get even more angry. Scared dog making this walk more difficult.
Then I'd groan more loudly and he'd skitter around terrified of me. it's a beautiful spring morning but I'm feeling like I'll never get through this walk, because I can't handle it. What if someone sees me and thinks I'm dangerous or crazy? I'm not pulling the dogs around - I'm just frustrated too easily over everything and anything.
Gizmo the Male slows to a stop with his tail between his legs and refuses to move. He falls down on the grass shaking like a leaf. Chewy the female is more brave seemingly, but I see her scared too - approaching with total hesitation. I don't know what to do or what will happen. I sit down in the middle of the sidewalk halfway down the block and cars keep passing by and the dogs are scared and I'm slouched over and people passing on the other side of the street saying "Are you alright?" before continuing on. All I know is I need to calm down.
I use the DEACTIVATE method that my counselor taught me. I close my eyes and release all control whatsoever and fall into a slump. I then spell out one letter at a time and ponder the word that the letter stands for. D - Diffuse. E - Energy. A - Action. C - Consequence/Choice. If I flip out, there are consequences. I'm not used to having to walk dogs or even having a consequence for making my frustrations known. But now I groan and the dogs get scared - I will only get through a walk like this is I can suppress my anger. It's not just me. All three of us have to make it through this walk. Choice? I can choose how to behave. I don't have to end up like this - like a monkey at a zoo exhibit. And I dont have to make everyone worry about me- I'm fine.
I can't sit here forever because people are taking notice and I dont trust people. I reassure the dogs that they're safe and I get back up and get us all walking again. This time with humility as opposed to anger. I have something to take care of other than myself. I have to refrain from anger so that these dogs dont get scared, and I have to keep moving. But we're all getting treats when we get back home.
And now I'm home
I feel much better. But... I have to take them out again right now
OMGWTFBBQ
The dogs are wagging their tails. I gave them attentions and some treats. They're laying down doing their thing. I have to remember that music helps me interact with them.
I was just out walking them. I had two at once (all small dogs) and I shut down right on the sidewalk, midway along the block. People say I let all the little things bother me. And so it was. I got upset because there was people walking further down the sidewalk, I got upset when cars drove by, I got upset because the Male dog kept trying to walk on my right, and then I'd have to adjust the leashes.
I'd express my anger with a groan and the dog heard that and got scared, so now he was stubborn and only moved with my permission - like stopping 2ft in front of my feet or stopping behind me so that I'd pull him and get even more angry. Scared dog making this walk more difficult.
Then I'd groan more loudly and he'd skitter around terrified of me. it's a beautiful spring morning but I'm feeling like I'll never get through this walk, because I can't handle it. What if someone sees me and thinks I'm dangerous or crazy? I'm not pulling the dogs around - I'm just frustrated too easily over everything and anything.
Gizmo the Male slows to a stop with his tail between his legs and refuses to move. He falls down on the grass shaking like a leaf. Chewy the female is more brave seemingly, but I see her scared too - approaching with total hesitation. I don't know what to do or what will happen. I sit down in the middle of the sidewalk halfway down the block and cars keep passing by and the dogs are scared and I'm slouched over and people passing on the other side of the street saying "Are you alright?" before continuing on. All I know is I need to calm down.
I use the DEACTIVATE method that my counselor taught me. I close my eyes and release all control whatsoever and fall into a slump. I then spell out one letter at a time and ponder the word that the letter stands for. D - Diffuse. E - Energy. A - Action. C - Consequence/Choice. If I flip out, there are consequences. I'm not used to having to walk dogs or even having a consequence for making my frustrations known. But now I groan and the dogs get scared - I will only get through a walk like this is I can suppress my anger. It's not just me. All three of us have to make it through this walk. Choice? I can choose how to behave. I don't have to end up like this - like a monkey at a zoo exhibit. And I dont have to make everyone worry about me- I'm fine.
I can't sit here forever because people are taking notice and I dont trust people. I reassure the dogs that they're safe and I get back up and get us all walking again. This time with humility as opposed to anger. I have something to take care of other than myself. I have to refrain from anger so that these dogs dont get scared, and I have to keep moving. But we're all getting treats when we get back home.
And now I'm home
I feel much better. But... I have to take them out again right now
OMGWTFBBQ
