Unpleasant dreams.

[Aspieistj]

My circadian rhythms have been backwards since infancy. I am alert at night and just want to sleep all day. When I was in school or worked a day job I was forced to be awake all day, but now I am retired and I still feel dopey all day and want to sleep, but when night comes I am wide awake. All my life I have occasionally had recurring unpleasant dreams . For the past 10 years whenever I wake I realize I was dreaming and the dreams are 95% unpleasant. I very rarely wake without being aware of having just been dreaming and those dreams are almost always very stressful. I have fibromyalgia and when it is really active I wake in terrible pain. Getting up and doing anything usually makes most of the pain subside but if I wake at 3 or 4 AM and get up, I am not likely to fall asleep again for many hours. I am now retired and live alone so I pretty much allow myself to sleep whenever I want to. However, the almost constant unpleasant dreams continue. When I first wake up I am very aware of what I was dreaming, but within a few minutes I can't recall any details, only that the dream was disturbing. I wish I never had to sleep. Another complaint: People who lecture me to just get up early every day and I will soon become alert during the day and want to sleep at night. These people also are "amazed" if they call at 10 or 11 AM and find I was sleeping. I would never think of calling them at midnight but they feel it is OK to call me before noon. Are all neurotypicals selfish, intolerant idiots???? These are the same people who chide me for never learning to stop saying the wrong thing. How very nice it would be to be perfect, like these people. Retirement is the best part of my life because I can avoid people most of the time.

 

[pjcnet]

My sleep is also all over the place too where I'm also up more at night than during the day, but I have sleep apnoea where the treatment isn't working well at the moment and also an under-active thyroid gland. Because of this I can sleep excessively too and can be suddenly extremely tired often where I can fall asleep virtually anywhere even in public places if I as much as sit down (even if I don't I will feel very fatigued). If possible however it might be worth getting yourself referred to a sleep specialist, I don't know what country you live in or whether you have a national health service as in the UK you'd only have to see your GP and ask to be referred, there might be a waiting list, but at least it's free (well included with normal taxes) and there's a lot they can do to help issues such as your own (it's possible that this isn't related to asperger syndrome or it could only be part of the issue, so it's good to have everything else eliminated too).