I try giving it all to my higher power and leaving it out of my hands. That works for a while.
I try empathy for those who harmed me, and I can accept that perhaps they have a lot of untreated sadness and or mental health/trauma issues of their own, and I accept that it is not up to me to own any of that and that none of it was ever personal.
I feel more grief than anger right now.
The therapist says this is how it works when processing this stuff.
Of course, I wish I could switch it all off like a light switch and move on with my life without carrying any of this. It does not work like that.
I try empathy for those who harmed me, and I can accept that perhaps they have a lot of untreated sadness and or mental health/trauma issues of their own, and I accept that it is not up to me to own any of that and that none of it was ever personal.
I feel more grief than anger right now.
The therapist says this is how it works when processing this stuff.
Of course, I wish I could switch it all off like a light switch and move on with my life without carrying any of this. It does not work like that.