This is generally my style in relationships

[Jonn]

Spoiler: music clip

We all have different personalities and ways of expressing ourselves.
We meet a challenge and define our own solutions to the best of our abilities at the time.
Sometimes we are successful, and at other times, not so much...
Experience helps...

What is your thang?

Keep in mind:
Not everything in videos or articles may represent a person's personal views, but it does provide an opportunity for discussion.

You may criticise my approach...but...

Spoiler: joke

I reserve the right to smack you one.

 

[Coxhere]

Spoiler: music clip

We all have different personalities and ways of expressing ourselves.
We meet a challenge and define our own solutions to the best of our abilities at the time.
Sometimes we are successful, and at other times, not so much...
Experience helps...

What is your thang?

Keep in mind:
Not everything in videos or articles may represent a person's personal views, but it does provide an opportunity for discussion.

You may criticise my approach...but...

Spoiler: joke

I reserve the right to smack you one.

"We all have different personalities and ways of expressing ourselves."

Do you think that one's personality and ways of self-expression can change depending upon both internal and external circumstances? Are all parts of one's personality and ways of expression displayed all at once? And there was (is) a thread regarding one wearing "masks." What about one's wearing masks that hide parts of one's personality and ways of expressing one's self?

 

[RemyZee]

Spoiler: music clip

We all have different personalities and ways of expressing ourselves.
We meet a challenge and define our own solutions to the best of our abilities at the time.
Sometimes we are successful, and at other times, not so much...
Experience helps...

What is your thang?

Keep in mind:
Not everything in videos or articles may represent a person's personal views, but it does provide an opportunity for discussion.

You may criticise my approach...but...

Spoiler: joke

I reserve the right to smack you one.

love that song

 

[Jonn]

At the beginning of the relationship with my first G/F, I travelled 12 hours round trip to post a letter in the local postbox.
To say she was impressed is an understatement.

12 hours at an average speed of 120 kph = 1,440 km = 894.7745 miles.
Close to 1,000 miles, but no cigars.

 

[Coxhere]

At the beginning of the relationship with my first G/F, I travelled 12 hours round trip to post a letter in the local postbox.
To say she was impressed is an understatement.

12 hours at an average speed of 120 kph = 1,440 km = 894.7745 miles.
Close to 1,000 miles, but no cigars.

And you say, Jonn, that it was a "local" postbox???? Almost 450 miles away?

That first G/F was impressed. Did that first G/F turn into anything more serious?

 

[Jonn]

And you say, Jonn, that it was a "local" postbox???? Almost 450 miles away?

That first G/F was impressed. Did that first G/F turn into anything more serious?

The relationship never had a chance, but I didn't know it at the time.
She was a very good woman.

 

[Coxhere]

The relationship never had a chance, but I didn't know it at the time.
She was a very good woman.

And you were a very bad boy!

 

[Jonn]

And you were a very bad boy!

I was autistic and was ritually psychologically abused when I was 5, and developed a dissociative disorder as a result, which separated me from reality, so no.

The relationship never had a chance.

 

[Coxhere]

I was autistic and was ritually psychologically abused when I was 5, and developed a dissociative disorder as a result, which separated me from reality, so no.

The relationship never had a chance.

I meant that as a joke. You were not and you are not a "bad boy." I'm sorry that I said this even as a joke. I was physically, verbally, emotionally abused throughout my childhood too. I was targeted more than my siblings because I was "different." And different was very bad. My first memories were of an alcoholic father perpetrating domestic violence throughout the house where I was forced to live. He continued this kind of behavior unabatedly and Mother didn't protect me or my siblings. She said that I must "respect" my father. Really?

All of us left home as soon as we were able. We were all 17 when we left that kind of environment. I've never been diagnosed as a dissociative disorder. But I certainly dissociated and detached from the environment of my family of origin, Jonn. I dissociate from the world today and now via meditation. I was, however, diagnosed as Post Traumatic Stress and Major Depressive Disordered. The traumas that I experienced in the U.S. Army only made the PTSD and MDD worse. If I don't dissociate and detach via meditation today, I get mired in the morass of a physical reality that is dark, intimidating, threatening, and evil.

 

[Jonn]

I meant that as a joke. You were not and you are not a "bad boy." I'm sorry that I said this even as a joke.

I knew it was a joke.
I simply took the opportunity to repeat my history.

All of us left home as soon as we were able. We were all 17 when we left that kind of environment.

I was damaged at school by a female teacher.
She was a small part in a much larger game.

I've never been diagnosed as a dissociative disorder. But I certainly dissociated and detached from the environment of my family of origin, Jonn. I dissociate from the world today and now via meditation. I was, however, diagnosed as Post Traumatic Stress and Major Depressive Disordered.

You will find that many, if not most ppl on these autism websites have PTSD, myself included, but I manage it very well through emotional stabilisation techniques.

The traumas that I experienced in the U.S. Army only made the PTSD and MDD worse. If I don't dissociate and detach via meditation today, I get mired in the morass of a physical reality that is dark, intimidating, threatening, and evil.

I have the mute button, and Zaphod's peril glasses for that.

Spoiler

Yes, it is a nasty world out there.
That is why I have turned to a stoic frame of mind.

 

[Coxhere]

I knew it was a joke.
I simply took the opportunity to repeat my history.


I was damaged at school by a female teacher.
She was a small part in a much larger game.


You will find that many, if not most ppl on these autism websites have PTSD, myself included, but I manage it very well through emotional stabilisation techniques.


I have the mute button, and Zaphod's peril glasses for that.

Spoiler

Yes, it is a nasty world out there.
That is why I have turned to a stoic frame of mind.

I think that you are a remarkable man, one who's taken the cards he's been dealt, and who plays them well. I think you are a very intelligent man and one who enriches the lives of others via your knowledgeable and wise posts. I think you are a friendly man and one whom I'd like to "hang with." (Smile.)

 

[Jonn]

I guess I was an old-style romantic, at heart, when I was young.
Here is a song to support that:

I ended up being anorexic, for a time.

 

[Kayla55]

When you said your mom's went silent? In modern psychology it's accepted that varied forms of abuse, financial and emotional.
I fought hard with my ex, it wasn't physical abuse but other two I mentioned and he acted as if my son's disability was accident which could diagnose as planned, calculated evil doing. I tried everything to leave but financially I could only manage with boys in school of which weren't ready for grade 1. I eat out of guilt, but realise in comfort how many men can't even take on some of these battles. I'm not sure my son's memories on how hard I fought, and why women's rights can also be child rights = cases where a partner fails the other, ND it can be people not just men, but society tends to view this in light. The part that really hurts is where once a child goes into system realise loss of parent, reality of giving up so much, but as child I was in harm's way. The other aspect is how society and teachers looked down on us after social worker was called in to witness him on drugs, we were stigmatised as trash when it was him, not us. With new laws on anonymous reporting, and say it's child rights but not everyone has view or interest in spending their time to help.... So we eventually moved to start over. My son isn't responsive to others suffering, I wasn't silent but last time I fought with him I was thrown on street and custody battle, perhaps with ASD it exacerbates potential for us to express hurt to each other, but I know to certain extent I made him pay for what he did and eventually exposed him. Famous words: well done for speaking out on abuse, awe the shame, actually but if that's what it took then he chose that. I think with ASD I just leave the issue, he can come out his she'll when he wants to,

I appreciate others who open about these problems, mostly I find society looks down as if more stress is needed.

 

[Kayla55]

Then he still started golden child/scapegoat all the time pretending to be 'the caring dad'
My boy left hockey practice in pain, and I showed him what hip surgery entails, 6 months in wheelchair, if successful and cost + excess. It appeared I was trashing his father but honestly he was still trying to act proud to be taurus, I mean whole think stunk of sardonic!!!!!
Due to asd he was quite as well, early days his friend at school was thalomide baby: I suppose it helped both of us mums to get through some of the hurdles.
It really stinks that he needs to find new dad, really, get taken under wing to learn real love should be like, but since he's not a go-getter sadly appears he withers away silently.
I believe I told him the truth, and had to shatter illusions...

 

[Kayla55]

Suppose metaphor since racoons like the trash, the animal rescue of starving dogs rehabilitated really upsets me, thank God for these people who help.

 

[Kayla55]

In 1945 onwards, some became increasingly wealthy. Whilst so called partitioning for rights of others, no answers came, life on reservation was hard but seems as though despite all money in world, world class economy that trying to find solution, never came.
Guess Mozart first one to point finger at Melania, irony has no limit it just redefines.

This is uncut version below, delete it and sleep well.

 

[Kayla55]