The story so far...

[aspieman2396]

Hey everyone, long time no post. First and foremost, I have been in a really dark place in the last couple of weeks and it got really bad. I am still here and fighting though and I will pull through. My father went through Chemo and treatment and is progressing along fine, I am still on alert because anything can happen. My stepmom is contemplating leaving my dad.. This is unsettling and I dont know whats going to happen. I think shes growing tired of me too. And the exchanges we had recently were less than cordial... I am holding out hope that things will be Okay but I need to get my life going. I have been depressed with all of these things going on along with some other stuff that I would talk about at a later time. Despite all of that, I finally got my Drivers License and I got into the university that I wanted to transfer to. So, theres a silver lining in these times.
I have embraced my lone wolf mentality until I can finally go to a therapist and get my issues sorted out. But there are times that I really want a GF or some female companionship... But with my situation going on, thats going to be hard.

I finally blocked my biological mom from my phone after she sent some threatening messages and attacked my faith... That was a very hard decision to do and Im still reeling from it...

Over and above all, thats my 2018 so far and thats it.

 

[aspieman2396]

I will add in more tomorrow.

 

[SusanLR]

I will add in more tomorrow.

Please do continue. Glad to see you back.
Always welcome here.

 

[aspieman2396]

Continuing on, I also have been trying to get a new job but I am glad to say the issues I have at work got resolved. I am still holding out hope, I had a few interviews nothing yet, I am waiting on a response this week, if they don't pick me, back to job hunting...

I also have been trying to lose weight because I did put on some weight as a result of the events of the last few years, I am on my way but I do slip up sometimes. Anyways, it's a journey and I can say that I am well on my way.

I also wanted to tell you about the day that I got my license, I actually did practice more and I have been mentally prepared, I thought I was going to fail but everything turned out so right and it was the DMV's final day of operations to boot, so I was very proud of this achievement. I drove around some afternoons and it felt amazing, still saving up for my car so I can do it more.

I started remembering a crush of mine, and now I can't stop thinking about her for some reason, although I have been trying to move on from her, it's torture.

So in the saga in between me and my mother (Check my previous posts for the backstory), She sent me some messages and voicemails in a threatening tone of voice. All of this came into a head last week and she basically said that God was going to punish me for not talking to her, I got offended and as of now, it's still bothering me and it really hurts.