The more I read, the more I'm convinced, the more I feel confusing emotions.

[Stik]

I started researching the possibility of me having ASD when I saw a book at the library, my favorite public place, called 'I Think I Might Have Autism'. I couldn't believe how much I related to the book. I've seen psychiatrists and psychologists since I was 14, I am now 31, and no one ever mentioned autism. Now that my doctor is stumped because no medication helps my depression he listened when I brought up ASD. I have an appointment to see a behavioral specialist to see if they have any ideas and he said he would introduce the thought of ASD. I'm nervous ... What if they say I'm definitely not on the spectrum when I'm convinced I am? What does that mean? I've been struggling for so long and I think my depression is a symptom rather than a diagnosis. Sometimes I think I'm depressed because I see how awful society can be and can't do anything about it. I get upset because people don't understand me and that makes me depressed. I get annoyed when people don't understand things that seem like common sense to me, then I get depressed. Ugh, I'm nervous. Does anyone have advice for my appointment on Wednesday? I want to be taken seriously.

 

[Archer36]

You shouldn't be nervous. It's a great opportunity that you have there. You'll go there and will have a nice discussion about what you are experiencing. It's a very good thing. Just try to be honest with him and with yourself. You are a very intelligent person, so don't let your believes blind you. Its possible that you are right but its also possible that you are wrong, more than likely it will be something in the middle. You'll voice your opinion and he will explain you his opinion too, then you'll be capable to analyze and understand the big picture better.

In the end, you'll be the same person before and after. So there are no reasons to be anxious about this. It might just be another step in the right direction.