if6wasnin9
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I've had severe mood disorder almost 50 years, taken every drug and tons of ECT with little relief. And dozens of hospitalizations, abused in hospitals. I'm severe bipolar and meds have helped last 6 months and now I'm told I'm autistic, too. And my NP said I'm schizophrenic.
I tell her I don't feel anything and consequently have trouble relating to myself and enjoying myself. She tells me it's the meds and I say "No, I've felt like this since I was 14". I started dissociating when I was 14 and felt numb. She is one of the better Drs I've seen but she doesn't care if I improve and enjoy myself. Most Drs I've seen were completely incompetent. What do I do? I can't get thru to anyone that I feel numb and confused most of the time! These Drs don't care if you improve or not! It's a scam! I was in Johns Hopkins 8x and they didn't want to know anything about me, I couldn't believe it! It was a malpractice suit! A stupid Resident laughed after ECT made me hallucinate after 5 treatments! It wasn't funny, goddamnit!!!
I tell her I don't feel anything and consequently have trouble relating to myself and enjoying myself. She tells me it's the meds and I say "No, I've felt like this since I was 14". I started dissociating when I was 14 and felt numb. She is one of the better Drs I've seen but she doesn't care if I improve and enjoy myself. Most Drs I've seen were completely incompetent. What do I do? I can't get thru to anyone that I feel numb and confused most of the time! These Drs don't care if you improve or not! It's a scam! I was in Johns Hopkins 8x and they didn't want to know anything about me, I couldn't believe it! It was a malpractice suit! A stupid Resident laughed after ECT made me hallucinate after 5 treatments! It wasn't funny, goddamnit!!!
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