ayoungaspie
Well-Known Member
Like many Aspies I've had obsessions which manifest through various things in my life. At one point it was to do with my insecurity about my height. Most recently I have been obsessed with social media, specifically Facebook. It seems to be kind of an OCD. This isn't entirely new - in the past I have carried out compulsions to make new accounts and unfriend people on there. I realize now that this was done with no real reward in mind, particularly since at a later date I had a tendency to change my mind and attempt to revert things back to how they were before. It was simply done to satisfy a fixed idea in my head which constituted the way I felt my account should be at that time.
The problem is that even though my urges in these moments felt "right", I regret it all now and it's getting me down because I feel I have a fragmented social media life as a result of my actions and my Facebook profile doesn't have the same qualities as most other peoples. I'm 20 and most people I knew from high school probably wouldn't friend me again if I requested them, they probably find my patterns of behaviour on Facebook odd in fact since I've added some of them multiple times on my various accounts. It's painful for me to realize that if I had left it all alone from the start then it would be a hell of a lot different now, and my timeline would date back to when I actually joined Facebook as well.
I hope I've explained this all well, it's really getting me down because I can't turn back the clock and change the fact that I carried out these abnormal social media behaviours. I feel as though I'm missing that "status symbol" thing other people have through their Facebook profiles (not that it's really important, but I can't help but let it bug me). I still over-analyze everything to do with it as well such as who I should send friend requests, etc. The whole thing keeps repeating in my head and I can't seem to let it go. Can anyone else relate to this particular kind of obsession? Or perhaps suggest a way for me to cope with this and move forward in terms of my social media life? I'm at my wits end focusing on it.
The problem is that even though my urges in these moments felt "right", I regret it all now and it's getting me down because I feel I have a fragmented social media life as a result of my actions and my Facebook profile doesn't have the same qualities as most other peoples. I'm 20 and most people I knew from high school probably wouldn't friend me again if I requested them, they probably find my patterns of behaviour on Facebook odd in fact since I've added some of them multiple times on my various accounts. It's painful for me to realize that if I had left it all alone from the start then it would be a hell of a lot different now, and my timeline would date back to when I actually joined Facebook as well.
I hope I've explained this all well, it's really getting me down because I can't turn back the clock and change the fact that I carried out these abnormal social media behaviours. I feel as though I'm missing that "status symbol" thing other people have through their Facebook profiles (not that it's really important, but I can't help but let it bug me). I still over-analyze everything to do with it as well such as who I should send friend requests, etc. The whole thing keeps repeating in my head and I can't seem to let it go. Can anyone else relate to this particular kind of obsession? Or perhaps suggest a way for me to cope with this and move forward in terms of my social media life? I'm at my wits end focusing on it.