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I don't see my autism a problem

Autism for me has been a massive "double-edged sword".

Earlier in life it was perpetual trauma. Much of that has resulted in unrelenting PTSD's. I guess about 75% of my life was worse than living a perpetual nightmare. Beyond anything Stephen King could ever dream up. I always enjoyed the Twilight Zone TV show because I could relate. - It fit my life better than anything else on TV.

But, then it has also been wonderful (understatement). In spite of all the horrors, I couldn't be more happy with where it has taken me. Of course I didn't know that until after retirement age - into my late 60's. It was hell getting here, but now, I'm happy where and how I got here. A profound realization that what I passionately wanted to do with my life, what my heart was set on, as a young kid in my single digit age, is exactly how it turned out. But I had no idea. Just a few years ago, I would never agree with what I just said. As I look back on how it all unfolded, it is very clear that it turned out the way it did is because I am autistic. Could never have ended up here if not.

Sometimes you just never know how it will all turnout regardless how it looks at the moment. It seems that at any age, we always think our life is set and will never be any different. - Yea... It will.
 
Ken said:
Autism for me has been a massive "double-edged sword".

Earlier in life it was perpetual trauma. Much of that has resulted in unrelenting PTSD's.
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An autistic person with PTSD?
That is unheard of! :eek:😛

Spot the autistic that doesn't have that.

Ken said:
I guess about 75% of my life was worse than living a perpetual nightmare.
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I hear you, brother.
My life was a total hell until I was in my 40s.

Ken said:
Beyond anything Stephen King could ever dream up. I always enjoyed the Twilight Zone TV show because I could relate. - It fit my life better than anything else on TV.
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OUCH!

Ken said:
But, then it has also been wonderful (understatement). In spite of all the horrors, I couldn't be more happy with where it has taken me. Of course I didn't know that until after retirement age - into my late 60's. It was hell getting here, but now, I'm happy where and how I got here.
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I always appreciated my reasoning abilities and was happy to be different from the emotionalists around me.
I have been in a good place since I was able to retire at 50. :cool:

Ken said:
A profound realization that what I passionately wanted to do with my life, what my heart was set on, as a young kid in my single digit age, is exactly how it turned out. But I had no idea. Just a few years ago, I would never agree with what I just said. As I look back on how it all unfolded, it is very clear that it turned out the way it did is because I am autistic. Could never have ended up here if not.
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As an Existential Nihilist, I am content with who I am and where I am.

Ken said:
Sometimes you just never know how it will all turnout regardless how it looks at the moment. It seems that at any age, we always think our life is set and will never be any different. - Yea... It will.
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Yes, it can.
Change is inevitable.
There is nothing we can do about it, even if we wanted to.
Evolutionary psychology at work. <shrug>
 
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