getting really bad homesickness whenever i go out

[laurie]

whenever i leave my house i keep getting this feeling of homesickness or more like impending doom spring up on me. idk what it's linked to it could be either anxiety or something to do with asd but i was just wondering if anyone else experiences this? my home isn't even a particularly fond or comforting place for me either it's usually quite stress-filled which is kind of confusing. as for the feeling itself it's just an unsettling feeling; reminiscent of my earlier days of school when i would get half way to school and realise i've forgotten one of my books or didn't realise there was homework, just a sinking feeling not really triggered by anything but experiencing the outside.

 

[Unclewolverine]

I drove over the road for a year and you really don't appreciate home until you are away from it for an extended period! Otherwise, I feel you; we host most of our big extended family functions which is nice because my anxiety starts rising pretty bad if we have to spend hours somewhere else. The bad part is when it starts to get to being too much I can't just leave. However, we live on a farm and I can easily find somewhere quiet to re group.

 

[clg114]

To me, home is everything. My wife is there (or we are away from home together). Our kids are grown up and have families of their own. But we still have babies to come home to, three Chihuahuas. I guess to my wife and I, home is where family is. As we get older, we spend more time at home. So home is everything.

 

[Thinx]

This sounds difficult, like you say, it does sound like anxiety, maybe fear? Does it always happen? What kind of journeys are you making when it happens? Is this an anxious time for you in other ways?

 

[Gerald Wilgus]

However, we live on a farm and I can easily find somewhere quiet to re group.

I hear ya. My closest neighbor is 1/4 mile away the ambient sound (outside of farm equipment operation) is below 30 dB. One can find peace on my 40 acres in many places.

 

[Suzette]

@laurie, there is comfort in the familiar, even the crappy familiar. We understand the crappy familiar thing and can usually predict outcomes. But outside of the familiar there are unknowns that we can not predict so it is scarier.

 

[laurie]

This sounds difficult, like you say, it does sound like anxiety, maybe fear? Does it always happen? What kind of journeys are you making when it happens? Is this an anxious time for you in other ways?

i’ve noticed it quite frequently when i go to intense cities like london and am walking around. but generally there isn’t much of a pattern; anywhere i don’t feel safe i guess. like i was just sitting in a cafe today with my sister and i got a sudden feeling of sadness and this lump in the back of my throat that i usually get when i’m about to have a bit of a meltdown. it’s a little bit of a stressful time as i’m going to uni in a week or so and have been procrastinating preparation work so yes it’s probably down to that impending thought