Feel like running away again.

[Starflowerpower87]

I looked at the hotel options in my area and there really aren't any good deals. All expensive, not a nice place to stay. So back packing it is. I thought now that I've got my period, the urge to run would go. But it's still here. But I'm on social media again lol. I also haven't showered in a while. I get down on myself when I don't do that. When my period is over I'm going to plan a day for traveling around with a back pack. I don't know where I'll go because there is a fire ban on right now and people aren't allowed on the trails. It has been a very dry summer here. I'll figure something out. I think you are still allowed in parks. As long as it isn't in the woods.

 

[Starflowerpower87]

When things start going bad in my life I want to run. Always have felt that way.
Kinda like the Thelma and Louise type thing. Just take off. I know it isn't the thing to do though despite the feeling of wanting to.
The closest thing I've done a few times was go to a nice motel for the night.
I've done this after getting into arguments with my house companion.

The desire to live life in an RV and just travel around has always been my fantasy.
Almost achieved it with my parents when dad retired. They liked the idea too, but their health failed before we could actually do it.
Then I started having health problems and it would be impossible now.
I'll always wish I could have lived this way for a while at least.

There once was a time when I lived with my parents in my twenties, that I had the most freedom I ever had. I was done school, no job, not many responsibilities. I had a bike and I would travel into town at night and go shopping. Sometimes I would bike to the beach and sleep in the sand overnight. I eventually got kicked out of my parents place due to bad behavior because I had undiagnosed schizophrenia. It is one of my biggest regrets. If I would have just went to a psychologist and took the meds as advised in the first place, disaster could have been avoided. I would still have all that freedom and potential.