Entire family on the spectrum

[Leighanm]

Hi, the last few months have been very hard to process as both my boys have been diagnosed on the spectrum, which means its probably a hereditary thing in our family. Additionally, realizing why as family even growing up why my parents were loners with my weekends as a child spent at train stations with my dad obsessing over trains but he was caring and I know he loved me, sadly passed away when I was 18 yrs old. I now also know why I never felt loved ( or at least the way i expected it) or had any affection or hugs from my mother and seemed to completely meltdown if I was more than a minute late in the house. Why growing up my brothers conversations on surfing demoniated most of his discussion and not how I was feeling or how was my day. Finally it has made me realize that it wasn't that other family members did not love or care for me they did not know I was seeking or needing this love as I did not express my need for it. I have decided that I need to take the test and get counselling to understand myself and my family. I feel confused and lost as sometimes I feel I do not understand the neurotypical world at all believe all my family are on the spectrum but as this is what I have always known never seen how or why we were different but with all my over thinking lately I have picked up the things that were probably not so neurotypical in my family, as mentioned above. Does anyone feel like there entire family is on the spectrum and how did you cope with the realization of this?

 

[Ste11aeres]

In all honesty, its hard that more of my family members aren't on the spectrum, since as things are, I'm singled out as the weird one.