yes, being alien / locked behind glass / being stuck inside myself ... same for me. always been. I thought asperger's could never overcome. I thought I'd be stuck forever. and I was very sad about this.
untill now. yep. I thought outside of AS - at least if I want to. I won't stay outside but go back inside, so to say, after a short while. It takes a lot energy and practice. but it is an experience that is, in fact, mindblowing to extent that it left me stunned. It changes reality - which is product of the brain of course. yet, the brain is a self-consciouss system and it may therefore change itsself in any way that it likes to. you are the law-maker in your mind, remember that.
so, it does take a strong and powerful mind and perfect knowledge of the function of mind or one's thought - which is nothing else but self-perceiving bio-chemical processes, which can be studied, logically analyzed and predicted. then, my introspective insight is near to absolute. and my knowledge of psychology, psychodynamices in AS and NT, in neurology and pharmacy, in logic and analysis is of such precision, that I am the one who explains things to my therapist.
well, I guess it took me 12 years... and it the greates achievement of my life. 25 now. still breathing. whoop whoop. > it had to be done because of brutal trauma, it was only way out to flee from looming psychosis. I did on my own, alone. I was as good as dead. therefore, it was now or never for me - I made it, somehow, though I feared I would die of seizure or heart attack or something like that.
4 months of crying, screaming, rolling on the floor, smashing things and raging like a wild animal - every few hours or so. the rest of the time: thinking, theory, analysis, logic, again and again and again .. yet, it worked. incredible. my therapist was thunder-struck =D
I am not sure if anybody has ever done this. well, probably someone will. yet, I have not found any documentation. of course, for me it was so very horrible because of severe trauma - however, I am quite sure that there few aspies without trauma of any kind.
it is something may shake the sense of self, of reality, of one's existance so fundamentally, that it may be - so I suppose - be traumatizing as such. at least, if you are suffering from ill mental health.
so, if you're more or less happy they way you are, I would not do it. NT aren't so very happy either, and they really don't get it what this aspie thing is all about. what is more: once you recognize that you are only one of many humans with many different complicated conditions, many worse than aspergers, it somewhat helps. we aspie are stuck in a very egocentric world.
plus, most of the NT are, in fact, quite kind. they are only human after all.^^
then, there are also easier ways to heal from anxiety, social phobia, 'wearing suits'/masks and such things - most of these things happen in your mind. and only there. you get to decide if they do. speaking about it, or writing about it, helps me a lot.
I am writing on various texts right now, though, which will provide a precise overview over AS and NT psychology as well as methods of reducing anxiety, paranoia, shame and guilt, self-hatred, psychosis, personality disorders and much more - so that in future, hopefully, some aspies will be able to set themselves free from their misery. for now I can offer this: