Hey everyone
First real thread on here and is about an "autism show" that was on channel 4 in the UK a week or so ago. Know it's been talked about on here but haven't read any posts just wanted to express as it was something that made me want to post but am on,y getting to it now! If it's in the wrong section it's cool to move it.
Didn't actually watch the show but was in Twitter just after if any read a load of tweets/thoughts (not always a good thing). Not really into watching those kind of shows anyway as it's such an individualistic thing and through experience think a lot of them look to make black and white something that just isn't.
One of the things I did pick up on was this vibe that it all seemed to be about looking at it from an NT world thing, so job situations or how things were etc. One of the biggest impacts personally was the effect that getting away from NT environments had on being able to get any perspective on how things were and are, wasn't diagnosed till a few years ago and looking back always knew things were different from the frustrations and issues before then but had no way to express it to myself. Even now I can look back on things as early as nursery school and see why things were how they were or how I reacted etc. None of this happens while you are in the very situations that aren't good for you, it's just frustration and burnout. Can remember forever feeling that I had to break away somehow but then would do the same thing all over again as I didn't know any different, and it was what all around me was doing.
Being away from those situations, having time and space has for the first time given identity to things, really don't want to make out that everything is "amazing" because there are still issues, but there is time and space to deal with them or let them tide out, and it's mostly on my terms. If there's a meltdown or burnout or frustration or spinning thinking there is time for it to ride out and gain some perspective. Amongst thoughts there is growth, 5 years ago I couldn't have written this on here without feeling sick and uncomfortable, 10 years would probably have been sick. Remember saying to someone once that getting away from wrong environments felt like knots were gradually untying, or that I was getting out of a swamp, and as I was reading more or even just experiencing more so came more and more truth of myself. I guess this is from not having to "act" or mask from one situation to the next, which doesn't grow anything. If I don't sleep till late because if thoughts or Stimming (even writing this at 2.30am here!) there is time after to sleep, which has a massive difference (fatigue). Eating is better than ever, again as environment change. Gradually thoughts can become patterned or have a base to them from experiences, rather than being a here and now sensation of nothing more than discomfort. However it is it is real and truthful, in whatever state of thought,
Like I said didn't watch the show and only read one comment on this kind of thing, everything else seemed to be shoehorning or a thought that it's all kinda the same. Obviously this is my own experience and again, it doesn't mean there are no issues, just a thought that came up from reading what was there.
Any thoughts are welcome, finally posted here!
First real thread on here and is about an "autism show" that was on channel 4 in the UK a week or so ago. Know it's been talked about on here but haven't read any posts just wanted to express as it was something that made me want to post but am on,y getting to it now! If it's in the wrong section it's cool to move it.
Didn't actually watch the show but was in Twitter just after if any read a load of tweets/thoughts (not always a good thing). Not really into watching those kind of shows anyway as it's such an individualistic thing and through experience think a lot of them look to make black and white something that just isn't.
One of the things I did pick up on was this vibe that it all seemed to be about looking at it from an NT world thing, so job situations or how things were etc. One of the biggest impacts personally was the effect that getting away from NT environments had on being able to get any perspective on how things were and are, wasn't diagnosed till a few years ago and looking back always knew things were different from the frustrations and issues before then but had no way to express it to myself. Even now I can look back on things as early as nursery school and see why things were how they were or how I reacted etc. None of this happens while you are in the very situations that aren't good for you, it's just frustration and burnout. Can remember forever feeling that I had to break away somehow but then would do the same thing all over again as I didn't know any different, and it was what all around me was doing.
Being away from those situations, having time and space has for the first time given identity to things, really don't want to make out that everything is "amazing" because there are still issues, but there is time and space to deal with them or let them tide out, and it's mostly on my terms. If there's a meltdown or burnout or frustration or spinning thinking there is time for it to ride out and gain some perspective. Amongst thoughts there is growth, 5 years ago I couldn't have written this on here without feeling sick and uncomfortable, 10 years would probably have been sick. Remember saying to someone once that getting away from wrong environments felt like knots were gradually untying, or that I was getting out of a swamp, and as I was reading more or even just experiencing more so came more and more truth of myself. I guess this is from not having to "act" or mask from one situation to the next, which doesn't grow anything. If I don't sleep till late because if thoughts or Stimming (even writing this at 2.30am here!) there is time after to sleep, which has a massive difference (fatigue). Eating is better than ever, again as environment change. Gradually thoughts can become patterned or have a base to them from experiences, rather than being a here and now sensation of nothing more than discomfort. However it is it is real and truthful, in whatever state of thought,
Like I said didn't watch the show and only read one comment on this kind of thing, everything else seemed to be shoehorning or a thought that it's all kinda the same. Obviously this is my own experience and again, it doesn't mean there are no issues, just a thought that came up from reading what was there.
Any thoughts are welcome, finally posted here!
