can't understand the world

[saraaa]

I hear you, @saraaa - You are not alone.

Masking can take the life out of us and it can be difficult to readjust and find the self after years of doing so. I know, because I have been there. Only in recent years have I been able to come to know and to be my self. It's liberating and one often begins to see things in a different way. You might find it helpful to drop the mask little by little and as much as possible in order that you can reveal your self (for your own sake) to others.

I know it can seem like the world is hell bent on self destruction. It can be difficult to see beyond the media hype at times out into a place where people are working towards rectifying all those wrongs that keep you up at night. Seek them out, perhaps - and come to know that you too can add your voice or actions to positively impact the wider world at large. You might be surprised at how it effects the inner self along the way.

thanks a lot for your comment, this is exactly what I am trying to do, even if everyone around me thinks I'm just being rude

 

[saraaa]

@saraaa

I'll let you in to a "not secret but it might as well be".

NT's have no idea why they do what they do either. If you ignore what they say, and pay attention to what they do, and think about the nature of the gap between those two, you'll see plenty of evidence.

There's more to this story, but I won't go on. Instead, two questions:

Why is a "greater purpose" necessary to you?
If you really believed (100%) what I said about NT's above, would it help you find your balance in the NT-dominated world?

NB: "I said if you believed" because I do already.
I've found it to be accurate enough (it's hard to test, so that's as good as it can ever be), and very useful in practice.

Thanks a lot, I'm overwhelmed by the positive comments

 

[saraaa]

From an early age I could never understand people. I could not process social communication and thought such interactions were arbitrary. Comparatively I could understand the world easily enough and saw the Cosmos as naturalistic and materialistic. There was never any room in that view for the supernatural. It was freeing for me.

Same for me, not believing in any supernatural thing is freeing, but at the same time you have no illusion of meaning

 

[saraaa]

How about tons of us assuring you of that?

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this is the best website I've ever been on, thank you

 

[Gerald Wilgus]

Same for me, not believing in any supernatural thing is freeing, but at the same time you have no illusion of meaning

I lost that illusion somewhere around age 15. In another thread I mentioned that I was unconventionally male and felt isolated because of that. Then, I saw religion as stuffing me into the straightjacket of conventionality while still giving others permission to be cruel in enforcing their ideas of being. I discovered ethics instead when I read Why I am Not a Christian.

 

[Storm Hess]

First, yes autism means self, or to me Dantes Inferno, because l am just trying to get out of my head, as @Storm Hess states. Back to @Neonatal RRT post, I still want the meaning of life. But maybe we all need to discover our individual meaning of life. For each of us it's different. Some of us help animals, some of us tinker with mechanics, and some of us here create beautiful digital images. @SusanLR states my same issues of not wanting to date, l thought guys were weird, and I was just content to float alone in life and play by society's rules. Why l have to create information dumps about everything is too wired in me, my life's meaning seems trivial to me, like I am a endless bean counter. This incessant obsessive quality of gathering information is numbing to me.

The value of life is what you give it. No matter the circumstances, the choices are left to you.