Kayla55
Well-Known Member
Not as in a type of rifle but trying to describe a type frustrated depression.
1. Work/money discontent
2. Social unhappiness
3. Relationship failure
Sum it up, areas in life that get you so down.
So my being bazookas presents as such....
1.
Mostly I'd find jobs, get jobs, once I'd figured out the job I'd loose interest since repeating same task was tedious, is shortage of good jobs where I livd, where I can hyperfocus on areas that interest me and get paid for this niche' skill. Attempts to get funding for own business to do above for myself didn't happen. Walked out on many jobs after about a year or two as couldn't force myself anymore, it took so much work to get independent of project manager scripts to where it was flexible to think on job but still confined.
2.
Masked a few times but eventually became bored and wanted likewise company, better conversation. Became uninterested
3.
Still yet to figure out why he's so obsessed with sex, it's beyond me and really not something that interests me, huge delema. Having lot flak for not being atypical girlie, and doing what I'm told.
Some may call this manic depression.
Regarding family life: I feel tired as just fixed up roof, my hands twitching like lizard tail that fell off, I lay down exhausted but hands still twitching to finish task at hand. Sick cleaning or fixing up mess. But my finances are just not there to live independent dream, feel so depressed with outcomes, but since I'm not young it's not like oh, we'll get another job and get over it. It's like feel like I'm drowning whilst contemplating cost solar power or even buying open land to go off grid, + WiFi or at least data
I really don't think we built for this world, and keep blaming money and thinking it's all that matters, anymore.
1. Work/money discontent
2. Social unhappiness
3. Relationship failure
Sum it up, areas in life that get you so down.
So my being bazookas presents as such....
1.
Mostly I'd find jobs, get jobs, once I'd figured out the job I'd loose interest since repeating same task was tedious, is shortage of good jobs where I livd, where I can hyperfocus on areas that interest me and get paid for this niche' skill. Attempts to get funding for own business to do above for myself didn't happen. Walked out on many jobs after about a year or two as couldn't force myself anymore, it took so much work to get independent of project manager scripts to where it was flexible to think on job but still confined.
2.
Masked a few times but eventually became bored and wanted likewise company, better conversation. Became uninterested
3.
Still yet to figure out why he's so obsessed with sex, it's beyond me and really not something that interests me, huge delema. Having lot flak for not being atypical girlie, and doing what I'm told.
Some may call this manic depression.
Regarding family life: I feel tired as just fixed up roof, my hands twitching like lizard tail that fell off, I lay down exhausted but hands still twitching to finish task at hand. Sick cleaning or fixing up mess. But my finances are just not there to live independent dream, feel so depressed with outcomes, but since I'm not young it's not like oh, we'll get another job and get over it. It's like feel like I'm drowning whilst contemplating cost solar power or even buying open land to go off grid, + WiFi or at least data
I really don't think we built for this world, and keep blaming money and thinking it's all that matters, anymore.
