Autism and Toddlers or Veterans

[lunarious]

In Gods Name, The Most High

I got put into compulsory treatment around 2009 because at the same time I was diagnosed "ASD 1". My mother say I was initially put into "observation" because they didn't know what my situation was.

From pre-2009 to 2019 (or 2018) I was treated in a way like a toddlers' or Swordsmans High Guard and Heightened alertness. This has been very exthausting, and I wasn't equipped with tools and skills to help me. Sadly I got Defenestrated but not dead. I also have an operation on my cerbellum or balance center. This has left me feeling like in The Darkness.

So I was on Heightened alertness, and they were and are observing. What can I do? What will they do now? ... My life is not good.

Edit Reason: Typo like @Alexej said

 

[Alexej]

Hi @lunarious
Just a small point, but there is a typo in the title.
As I read it you are meaning to write toddler - but you have written toodler.
Small matter - just pointing out the funny ways of English.

 

[lunarious]

Small matter - just pointing out the funny ways of English.

In God's Name, The Most High
...
Swordsmans High Guard and Heightened alertness

It's easy to conflate me with Allah. I'm "Royal Gard". But in many ways i know about Allah as much as you. If you are a scholar you might recognize higher frequency of nuances.

It is unsuitable to call me your Highness

 

[lunarious]

Spoiler: Tao Te Ching 55

Tao Te Ching 55

The one who is filled by virtue is like a newborn baby.
Wasps, scorpions, and serpents will not sting him.
Birds of prey and wild beasts will not strike him.
His bones are soft, his muscles weak,
But his grasp is firm.

He has not experienced the union of man and woman,
Still his penis rises.
His manhood is at its very height.
He can shout all day without getting hoarse.

His harmony is at its very height.
Harmony is called the eternal.
Knowing the eternal is called clarity.
Filling life exceedingly is called ominous.

Letting the mind control the vital breath is called force.
Things exalted then decay.
This is going against the Way.
What goes against the Way meets an early end.

 

[Rodafina]

@lunarious
If you are comfortable sharing, I am curious what you were like as a child. Do you remember feeling happy as a child? Can you remember a time when life was good?

 

[lunarious]

@lunarious
If you are comfortable sharing, I am curious what you were like as a child. Do you remember feeling happy as a child?

I came to Norway from Iraq when I was 8-9 y.o. I started school when I was 6, at that time school started when children was 7 y.o. I went to "all girls school" because my mom was teacher. I couldn't go to "all boys school", which was next to us. I had the whole class with females, and was a skirt-hunter.

I unlived a kitten when i was child, because i stole it from its mom. And i couldn't keep it so i was scared to confront the mom cat, to put it back. So i dropped it on the street. It died 3 days later in the rain.

I think color TV had come when i was child in Iraq. We had sanctions from USA so we had ration cards, cards that said how much food we could take.

We had a large open sewer canal between our house and the marketplace, i fell there and other places often. My mom showered me. My dad escaped the government, he was wanted for opposing .. the situation.

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My stay in Norway was a big Pain, because I'm ASD 1 (they say), I'm immigrant not original Norwegian, and Norway is in many ways different from Iraq. They are non-Muslim, and that's OK, but i have OCD and must be in "Heightened Alertedness" as i explained earlier.

Can you remember a time when life was good?

Plenty .... i'm irritated Allah soverginity is dis-regarded. Maybe that's why i have "Heightened Alertedness". Because people making alot nonsense. Obviously.

 

[Rodafina]

I came to Norway from Iraq when I was 8-9 y.o. I started school when I was 6, at that time school started when children was 7 y.o. I went to "all girls school" because my mom was teacher. I couldn't go to "all boys school", which was next to us. I had the whole class with females, and was a skirt-hunter.

I unlived a kitten when i was child, because i stole it from its mom. And i couldn't keep it so i was scared to confront the mom cat, to put it back. So i dropped it on the street. It died 3 days later in the rain.

I think color TV had come when i was child in Iraq. We had sanctions from USA so we had ration cards, cards that said how much food we could take.

We had a large open sewer canal between our house and the marketplace, i fell there and other places often. My mom showered me. My dad escaped the government, he was wanted for opposing .. the situation.

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My stay in Norway was a big Pain, because I'm ASD 1 (they say), I'm immigrant not original Norwegian, and Norway is in many ways different from Iraq. They are non-Muslim, and that's OK, but i have OCD and must be in "Heightened Alertedness" as i explained earlier.

Plenty .... i'm irritated Allah soverginity is dis-regarded. Maybe that's why i have "Heightened Alertedness". Because people making alot nonsense. Obviously.

It sounds like you have endured many challenging things and difficult times. I hope that you find peace and contentment in your future.

 

[lunarious]

It sounds like you have endured many challenging things and difficult times. I hope that you find peace and contentment in your future.

I feel sometimes life is unbearabel. That i might want to die. I've been dying long time. But i trust Allah concerning this descision. I trust God.

I'm INFP, ESTJ. I was just reading now how any relationship between these two is impossible. Somebody deformed me? Because now God knows i'm dependent on 'Force'. Technically.

I mean i'm weak. Now.

 

[Alexej]

I'm "Royal Gard".

What does "Royal Gard" mean? to which royalty are they attached and what is their role?

 

[lunarious]

Once upon a time I said: "Royalty are my Honor, and The Prophets Household are above my head".

I don't like to repeat myself

But Prophet Mohammed is also "Royalty or Royal Gard". He calls himself Prophet and Messenger by authority of Allah.

I put myself under him. I'm Honored to the barista of Prophet Mohammed (saws). I also have a weapon: "I'm Defenestrated."

The King is Allah, The Holy. My role is to Gard, the name of Imams and "black-belts", and tell people ... The Imam "got my sword". The Imam can speak. As technically being Defenestrated and Defensive weapon is classified as a Sword.

Also Aspergers and INFP has fantasy... I wish I was with Imam Hussein (as) that I might die a good death. Or be victorious!