Appointment with the specialist

[corrinnemcmahon]

My appointment went better than I expected today, Carrie (T) was really lovely. So why do I still feel this hopeless blanket coiling itself around me. An old familiar blanket. Not only do I have to hone skills to improve my autistic symptoms but also do battle with major depression and anxiety. Is there ever going to be an end to this? Will I ever feel free?

 

[Datura]

I ask myself the same question. I have more or less resigned myself to the notion that life is a struggle that we all eventually lose, but that it's profound beauty and finite nature make it worth every ounce of pain we must endure.

Of course, some of us struggle more than others, and I am still holding out hope that there are ways to make this voyage a bit less fraught. Time will tell I suppose.