Almost a meltdown...

[Stevie1903]

hi. Well I haven't had a meltdown for quite sometime. I am currently on desk duties due to my condition. Have been for about 3 years now. I'm usually outside in a very stressful full on job.

Got a little annoyed within myself yesterday with all the chatting at work. That was carried into today and I could tell I was heading a way I didn't want to. A colleague tried to chat to me about a couple of things I've been up to recently. I wasn't interested. My boss was very good and wanted to send me home but I found a quiet corner in the building and saw the day out.

I like a chat when I'm in the mood for it. If I'm not the noise just gets to me and I cannot function. There was just too much laughter and noise. The thing is I know my colleagues have the right to be social. God I'm the worst when in the mood! I don't expect anyone to behave in a way to suite me.

There's no real point to this but feeling a bit frustrated. I'm a 42 year old man and have to admit I find it embarrassing at times. I usually just keep my head down and the earphones in! I just don't like bringing this sort of attention on myself. Thing is everyone in the office is really nice but I do feel really conscious of myself much of the time.

Anyway thanks for reading if you've got to the end.

 

[ChrisC1983]

every now and then we need to take a break and decompress. when i get into moods like that i need to take a break from life and shut myself out of the world for a few days (haven't been able to so it's worse now.. but thats beside the point)

it looks like you're getting into a similar situation, needing to silence the world and get away from it


would you be able to take a few days off to decompress? maybe even a mini vacation? not actually traveling perse but just going to a local hotel so you don't even need to worry about making the bed or anything. maybe with a pool, gym, sauna.. whatever thing may relax you more

then you could come back refreshed and more relaxed

 

[Stevie1903]

Sounds great. Sadly that just isn't possible. I think either I muddle through and keep my head down or I just take a few days off from work. My passion is listening to music. It always helps.

 

[hiraeth]

I understand and relate a lot. Sound / noise is my biggest sensory sensitivity, and when people are laughing, or speaking loudly, or speaking in an excessively high pitch, the sound penetrates my brain and it feels like being stabbed by something. It is so awful that it makes me want to slam my head against a wall to make it stop. I hate open office spaces. Being outside is a bit better, at least in the context of sound sensitivity, but indoors I find that sound bounces off the walls and reverberates and amplifies and it gets really unbearable really quickly.

Listening to music does help. I've been thinking about investing in a pair of noise cancellation headphones, the next time I find myself in one of those office spaces. I would do anything to have a cubicle or god forbid my own office, but noooo, there's a philosophy going around that open office spaces are better. No they're not.