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Misery

Misery

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  • Misery
    I think I gotta step away from here for awhile. Spending too much time checking and clicking, and that is NOT helping me break bad habits. I'm getting better, much better, at resisting the urge to scroll (Youtube) and stupid things like that, but it's not enough yet. Gotta push harder. Have a good holiday, everyone!
    Misery
    Assembling a thing, lots of acrylic pieces, and I wonder: What moron had the idea of putting... ahem... """""protective""""" plastic on every piece? Once I'm done getting any given thing's plastic off, it looks like it had a fight with a particularly insane cat. The cat both won and lost at the same time. That doesnt make sense, but neither does that plastic.
    Judge
    Judge
    I'm equally experiencing needless anxiety over re-sealable plastic wrapping of cheese products, where suddenly most of them are terribly difficult to pull apart and reuse without damaging them and leaving cheese to quickly become stale. o_O
    Misery
    I dont know how anyone does digital drawing without going utterly mad. "Gonna give it another try" I said. 20 minutes later: "this thing cost like $1000. I think it's worth about $10, the stupid heap". Never should have bought that stupid iPad. May or may not have thrown it at the floor again. Pencils & paper all the way, thanks.
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    Misery
    Misery
    And lastly... it's an Apple device. So it's extremely limited in terms of what's even available for it. Apple wants it on their store or you cant use it at all. I end up barely using the thing, because it doesnt DO anything.
    Outdated
    Outdated
    Is it still working after hitting floors and walls a few times? Sell it on Ebay "slightly used". Not for the money but for peace of mind. :)
    Misery
    Misery
    It's basically in an indestructible case. Not because of throwing it, but because of how I'm a klutz. My big Android phone (which has no real problems to complain about) fell on the jagged slate floor the other day after I tripped over the dog. It's in a similar case, so instead of exploding, it just bounced. Cant imagine using these without a case.
    Misery
    Chronic pain gets real old, real fast. That being said... even with the pain I feel a lot better when I'm constantly *doing* things instead of watching stupid nonsense on Youtube. It's getting easier to resist that.
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    I'm sorry to hear that you are in pain. I hope you get to feeling better.
    Misery
    Misery
    Sadly, "better" usually doesnt really go along with chronic pain. There's low pain (the default), high pain, and "having trouble moving". Something always hurts at least somewhat.
    Outdated
    Outdated
    You do eventually get used to living with it. I'm in the same boat, got hit by a car at age 14, permanent spinal damage.
    Misery
    20251114_025015.webp

    Robot thing #2 in the middle of being built. When finished it will either A: lay dominoes, or B: explode. Also how does anyone frequently work with really tiny screws without totally losing their mind? This time I'm not doing it all in one night.
    Misery
    I'm so freaking tired of accounts for everything, passwords, confirmation numbers, stupid debit cards, stupid special wacky numbers on those cards, confirmation emails that arent received properly, having to change a password because it had no hieroglyphs in it... uuuuugh. I miss just using cash for things and having exactly one account (AOL). I totally didnt just launch a card at the monitor.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    l start mumbling when l have to get a code, to do anything, like just why, why?
    Misery
    Screenshot 2025-09-22 181031.webp


    A fractal object being worked on. I'm not entirely sure where I'm going with this one or how it's going to be used. This editor is specifically designed to make the 3D ones. Dealing with the 2D ones involves a variety of other programs.
    Misery
    Diamond and Stars[1J].webp


    This was complicated to make. I could animate this, but... maybe not right now. I think that's enough mouse use for today.
    Misery
    Not so fun moment: Just finish showering, step out of stall, grab towel from the wall rack, feel something bounce off my shoulder... what? Look down, white/gray ball thing wildly rolling back and forth on the floor, NOPE nope nope nope...
    Misery
    MazeSphere.webp


    Got my hands on some new bizarre (and expensive) rendering software. I'm not even going to try to explain what in the world is going on here. It's not a fractal, but it's not a polygonal object either. Powerful stuff though. I can do a lot with this. Though it takes even longer to render than my fractals do. I need more power.
    Misery
    4DBigGearDeepRoomCL.webp


    Wow that took a long time to render.
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    Misery
    Misery
    Took a few hours, this was a tough one. And then like 45 minutes for the final render. As for the island, I havent been there in a couple of years. We sold the place down there actually, because of too many hurricane threats. That was barely before the island did get smashed up a bit.
    Misery
    Misery
    Though the real reason I havent been there in awhile is because of an odd fear of airports and such. Not sure where that came from. I feel like I can do it now though, so we might do a trip down there at a rental soon like how we used to.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    The area l lived in was hit pretty hard. Bradenton Beach area looks new again, you can see the beach now as so many trees and plants are gone from the main drive out to longboat key.
    Misery
    4DTriViolet.webp


    This one took a while to do. Might not look like it but this is a 3D object. PC darn near exploded during that render. Then a little bit of Photoshop magic, and there ya go.
    Misery
    Step 1: Wake up middle of the night with nose itch. Step 2: frustration at this. Step 3: flail in direction of tissue box and angrily grab tissue. Step 4: blow really freaking hard. Step 5: liquid all over face. Step 6: uh oh. Later in the day step 7 will be: wash bedsheets and pillowcase. Also, freaking HYDRATE.
    Judge
    Judge
    Just as an experiment, you might purchase a box of adhesive nasal strips. See if they keep your nasal passages relatively open while you sleep. For me and my allergies it was quite a revelation that something so simple helps.
    Misery
    ArmoredBox2MultipliedDeepChasmGreenShineBrot~.webp


    I just discovered I can turn my previous art things into color mappings with these. Also this is the resolution the previous one was supposed to be in.
    Misery
    ArmoredCubeZoomHole2Flashlight~.webp


    Tiny teaser of a major project I started today. I've never tried something like this before and it is likely to take a few weeks. Also it's hard to get a proper "flashlight" effect in this fractal app. An unlit version of this same image also exists.
    Misery
    onelab_1757686408447.webp


    Art thing #2. Both this and the last one were created out of the same initial fractal image. Now my neck & back hurt, that's enough for today I think. Arms hurt too, because why not.
    Misery
    Well whaddya know, there is indeed a limit to just how much power I can get out of this PC. Generally fairly clear that I've gone too far when a single 2560x1440 fractal image needs a full hour to MAYBE render. I had to disable TDR just to make it even possible. Hopefully the accursed thing finishes without crashing.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Do not try playing Microsoft Flight Simulator at maximized settings on that machine.
    C
    Crabcore
    A lot of those algorithms can definitely be optimized, but it's pretty intense. I suck at math, so I wouldn't be very good at that part :D
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