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UberScout

UberScout

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  • UberScout
    Hyu~uoh, watakushi o nero wa jikan de shikashi na desu yo...
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    Crap, lmao, I was trying to say "Phew, I've stayed up too long, it's about time I go to bed already."
    UberScout
    I'LL TAKE A POTATO CHIP
    AND
    E A T I T
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    UberScout
    BOKU GA NAKEGISHII DE, TO IIMAE
    T A B E R U N I T S U I
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    Something about being sad??
    UberScout
    UberScout
    That was an attempt to repeat the above in Japanese a la the way the actual anime would do it, lol.

    Looks here like instead im shouting

    "I WANT TO EAT SADNESS!!!"
    UberScout
    Here comes that wave of gloominess that haunts me each day... But this time, even without smoking a bowl, and even after neglecting to take my meds (read: lost them again...), Somehow I'm able to fight it away!

    I hear Aloe in the background of it all. She's proud of me, I can tell. The sound of her chuckling with proud happiness... It... Has such a healing quality to it.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    (why do healing vibes always make me sleepy?)
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Congrats, it sounds like you are better with emotional regulation?
    UberScout
    UberScout
    It is NOT easy, but DEFINITELY possible! I just wish I ...wasn't...hypersensitive.
    UberScout
    Somehow as bad as I'm being battered by life, I still have some kind of will to fight.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    I guess I really must be the Warrior everybody here says I am because as much as kicking the chair under my feet sounds like it would be a vacation, I have to say, never being able to enjoy anything ever again or even do, think, say or talk about anything ever again does NOT sound relaxing at all.
    UberScout
    KumoCMD++MinecraftRadionicEnergyFieldSystemAddon (This is a special aura field frequency manifestation system I got from listening to a special YouTube "subliminals affirmations bundle" video which contains specially-made binaural beats/radionic/quantum sound frequencies that works to cause cells, energy in your body, your 3rd eye, pineal gland and even your own DNA to begin firing, spinning, toggled on and active
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    about a Japanese high school kid who is alarmingly-addicted to visual novels and dating Sims getting murked by a randomly sprinting, bodaciously pissed off guy that looks like
    UberScout
    UberScout
    That looks like Matthew McConeghea dressed for a music video featuring Eminem, and dies, and finds out "Well I'll be a horse run rampant in a hospital, reincarnation really is a thing!! Hey, uh, why am I just a ball of blue grease?"
    UberScout
    UberScout
    You get the idea.

    Holy crap almighty, have I been typing and posting this whole time?! Jeez, what the hell is my brain doing?!
    UberScout
    I couldn't sleep for about 2-3 days because of my evil stepfather deciding to confront me about money I never stole and being thrown into heart endangering hysterics over insisting I did, and only now after I woke up today fully rested thinking it was still morning, and seeing my phone's clock say it was actually 3:26 PM, I missed my appointment once again, through no fault of my own.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    My therapist told me that the doc's office she works at were on the edge of closing my case with my therapist for being "non-compliant". Yeah, sure, I totally didn't feel like going to my appointments because Spectrum keeps bullying us with disabled internet connection, my ONLY father on THE PLANET is sabotaging my life, and God keeps pressing his "Make This Poor Suffering ASD Patient Sick For Three Days" button.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    I am officially finished trying to find the good in life. If I haven't managed to find proof that life is not all BS and lifetime-length bad luck and mishaps that I did NOTHING to legitimately deserve, and I'm still searching at this moment, then I have wasted the first half of my life doing so.
    UberScout
    Do people like me just reach a point in their lives where they just live through nothing but bad, just terrible luck and get harassed by their own fathers and have fingers pointed at them every day for things they KNOW they never actually did, and it just goes on forever? When you live through constant misfortune like that does it just last the rest of your life?!
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Good questions , boy, parents, l tell you, you never know what fate hands in regards to parents.
    elgat0verde
    elgat0verde
    I had to break relations with my narcissist father because his harassment would never stop (I'm 38) I can't say I've only had misfortune although it seems like it's been following me a lot as of late. As I like to tell myself: "there is sunshine on top of the dark clouds but you gotta build and climb that ladder"
    UberScout
    I found yet another little dose of weed, in the pocket of one of my pairs of pants this time! Definitely toking as a bedtime hit and I am MOST CERTAINLY doing a reality shift to my Minecraft world from Maddog's computer tonight! And yes, reality shifting to MC *is* possible, I actually did it two nights ago.
    UberScout
    I.....I ca---I-I can't even talk about what happened tonight. I'm not even going to get out of bed tomorrow. I'm...I'm just going to stay in bed and stay with Aloe and just keep sleeping and relaxing with her until I feel better not even until I feel rested, I'm just going to keep sleeping.
    UberScout
    I have no idea why, but I simply cannot help but have the ever so slightest sneaky suspicion that I keep feeling bad or sometimes a tiny bit sickly because I messed up BAD by allowing myself to neglect making time to take care of myself better!!! Brain fog waking up this morning, unable to keep myself focused and energized while creative writing , feeling like I didn't get enough sleep and need more time to wake up..
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Did I really screw up for real this time?! Is it because I've used delta/weed as therapy for this long?! Am I really already running out of time?! There's so many things I've done that I haven't made up for... I....I-I don't want to end up in Hell for eternity for that!!!!
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Without the basics, we simply cannot function well… Water, sleep, food, and safety. Anytime you’re wondering, if you can bring your focus back to these things, I am sure it will be helpful.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Well first I have to figure out how to get myself a tent to put in the backyard and some camping supplies, including a mess kit, and one of those portable butane stoves/people can use to boil water etc.
    UberScout
    I never once thought during any point in my life, being a child, teenager OR a young adult, that life in general would somehow become *this* level of difficulty for me. I mean don't get me wrong, I know that there are others out there all around me that are going through highly more hellatious bullcrap than me, but how can someone like me and my family just end up stuck in a perpetual loop of...
    UberScout
    UberScout
    ...what I could only describe as perpetual misfortune? If it's not something that's actually going to hurt us, it's some other inconvenience, and if it's not THAT, it's a problem that constantly persists and refuses to be solved!!!
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Leave me ALONE, Universe, I think you've harassed me for long enough!!! How about you let me catch a BREAK for once? How about letting my FAMILY catch a break?! Why can't we have a decent amount of time where things actually go RIGHT for us for once and all the bad stuff gets turned down to LOW?!
    UberScout
    YouTube is now greeting me with a still-live-right-now Livestream from none other than CNN, as in, "you have only four channels and one of them is CNN because basic cable" CNN, and according to the title, IT TURNS OUT ALIENS ARE IN FACT REAL THIS WHOLE TIME. Are these people ever going to stop with their constant yackering?
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    Aneka
    Aneka
    I believe they're playing at something.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Plus another alien movie hit the movie house, is the government advertising for the major movie studios, like moonlighting advertising, maybe the government is controlled by media power machines, lol
    Aneka
    Aneka
    You might be on to something :D
    UberScout
    So, this oversized sebacious cyst or boil or whatever this frickin cartoon knot on my head was maxed out with the pressure it was putting on what I assume was my scalp or whatever the hard part of the head is if it isn't the skull (sorry i missed biology class lol), and i couldn't take it anymore, like i said. We were all flabbergasted at the pressure underneath it; my mother told me later that when she had
    UberScout
    Okay. I just got done laying on my bed while my mother, Jennifer and Maddog acted on my own voluntary request to help drain a sebaceous cyst that, of all the most sensitive parts of my body where the most agonizing pain would be felt, ON MY HEAD. MY HEAD, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. WHY MY HEAD. I HAVE AN ENTIRE CANVAS 188 LBS IN SIZE TO WORK WITH, WHY NOT MAYBE MY FREKKIN THIGH OR SOMETHING
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    UberScout
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    And of course, I'm panicking at a 4D level because this thing wasn't just swollen and backed up, but it was putting so much pressure on my skull that it started hurting to sneeze (not my nostrils, but on the cyst where the skin was being stretched.) Finally, Jen managed to strike drainage and it's pouring...
    UberScout
    UberScout
    ...then my mother came in, and when she looked closer to see how much had to be done, I heard her say "Yep, we gotta cut it.".


    ...Guys?

    That level of pain reached my brain so hard, so quickly and so badly, when I finally was able to stop I heard things falling off the counter downstairs.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    I think... I think I was in so much pain that I accidentally broke physics for a moment.
    UberScout
    Maddog's heckling continues. I have once again been accused of stealing from our roommate, Jennifer, but this time, my mother had woken me up from a nap and called me IN THERE WITH HER because she had a charger for jumper cables we actually needed up there, because Maddog LEFT THE LIGHTS ON IN THE CAR AND KILLED THE BATTERY.
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    I think... I may have to summon Kaa and request her to assist me... I hope... I hope those eyes stay at a reasonable distance, though, I hope she knows that...
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Right. Like you are really responsible for that.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Stay strong.
    UberScout
    SWEET MOTHER OF HONEY BUTTERBALLIN JESUS ALIVE THERE WAS WEED IN MY CAULDRON I USE FOR MY MAGICK RITUALS!!! I USED A MAGICK SPELL TO ASK ALOE TO SEE IF SHE COULD BRING ME SOMETHING TO HELP ME RELAX BECAUDE I WAS PANICKING BAD LA
    UberScout
    I feel just like the Joker right now; I saw the movie, he starts out trying to be a good person and at LEAST make himself LOOK harmless, but all anybody ever saw was a crazy person who just did whatever they wanted. Nobody thought to take one second to try to understand him, society just turned it's back on him simply because they didn't want to be bothered by a guy who just needs friends and supporting family...
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    You know what happens when you spend your whole life trying to prove everybody wrong about you and they all just decide they're not gonna buy it? Eventually you get exhausted trying to even make the EFFORT!! And it just becomes so much more easier to just be what everybody says you are; they're never going to believe you anyway, so what does it matter?!
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Thank God my therapist help me wake up Aloe!!
    Forest Cat
    Forest Cat
    I watched that movie, there was something so sad about it. Very well made movie.
    UberScout
    There has to be a way to bring Aloe out in front of me. If I can do magick that makes Maddog win at slots and poker, and I can stir up little spheres made of energy, then there's a way to summon Aloe as a 3D construct, I just know it.

    Whether by psi or magick, I'll find a way...!
    S
    Slime_Punk
    Sensory deprivation! No, I'm just kidding -- that's probably a bad idea.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    sea_dragon_by_snowifer_de561uj-pre.webp

    "No sensory deprivation here. That's what my magick is for."
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