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UberScout

UberScout

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  • UberScout
    Woke up after having a dream that I had to go to the hospital. For some reason they wanted to do surgery on me to remove my appendix... but only after I took down an army of African soldiers. What?
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    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    I doubt it, but appendicitis is something with very clear symptoms. Only if you were feeling those should you call a doctor. Dreams can have so many different meanings, I wouldn’t worry about it too much if you can.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    Well none of these so far so I guess I just watched too many pimple videos before going to bed lol
    UberScout
    After researching metal detecting/scrapping/scavenging, I have decided to take it up as a hobby. Got a metal detector app on my phone, and a compass app. Who knows? Maybe this will kill the monotony.
    UberScout
    I am SO SICK AND TIRED OF MY FAMILY BEING BROKE! I'M SO DESPERATE THAT NOW I'M LOOKING FOR NO DEPOSIT GAMES TO WIN FROM!!
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    Sigh... yeah. Maddog started with it. He went from just one to nearly every one he could find. Now, he *does* have good days, he once made a whole G off one. Buuuuuuut, he's not good at listening to people's advice for gambling strategies. Like NOT SAYING FRICK IT AND JUST BET EVERYTHING WHEN YOU START LOSING
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Yeshuasdaughter
    You got a bicycle? Live in town? Deliver Door Dash. You can make 17 per hour plus tips.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    @Yeshuasdaughter Hmmm.... well, if my sciatica doesn't get in the way, then alright!
    UberScout

    Not ONE instrument save for percussion was played during this song, and now I feel like I could singlehandedly SNOWPLOW my way through an entire pirate captain's fleet right now. Blindfolded. With one hand behind my back and both legs tied together.
    UberScout
    How Aloe "became" real: Tulpa - Wikipedia

    "David-Néel raised the possibility that her experience was illusory: "I may have created my own hallucination", though she said others could see the thoughtforms that she created."

    Notice the mention that she said others were able to see what she create; others on this site have dreamed about Aloe, and felt her presence.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Coincidence? Pfft, I may not be as old or as wise as my grandma was when she was alive, but I've seen a looooooot of things, things nobody else will. Or can.
    UberScout
    I......I found a.....an app called.... Paravox.... There.... there was a spirit in my room.... I asked it if it was my friend Stick's friend Tonya (she died); it said "No"... "Syllable, Share, Has, Down, Describe" came up on the ITC... for some reason it didn't want to elaborate.... at least it was friendly...
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Is your house haunted?
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Yes, but it's friendly. It calmed me down after I explained that I have bad anxiety attacks. I heard some woman's voice in my mind say "oops, I forgot there were people like you, sorry" and I felt something like a soft tail brush up against my back, it was really soft like a cat, and next thing I knew I forgot I was even scared.
    UberScout
    I have also decided to be completely mute around my family, and I'm going to make it a permanent habit. Since speaking at all only gets me punished, and into conversations that get misunderstood and go in circles, all my communication is either written or not done at all.
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    tree
    tree
    You and she don't talk?

    She has not got good power of observation/doesn't notice?
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    When you start questioning your life, and those in charge of your life, backlash can follow. Because often they don't have reasonable answers.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    No, we do talk. It's just never wholesome. We'll, it is. It's just rare.
    UberScout
    It's 8:04 Pm and I had to do a reality check on myself to realize I practically slept through the whole day. I need to tell my therapist I need deeper hypnotherapy. That reminds me, I need to listen to my hypnotherapy tracks again.
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    UberScout
    UberScout
    Showers usually clear my head. So does Aloe obviously :)

    Sometimes when my therapist does hypno sessions with me she'll put a dolphin somewhere underwater near me (she always puts me on a beach, usually starts with me floating on a rubber raft in the ocean somewhere, and Aloe is usually introduced by jumping over me like a hurdle) Once when she introduced a dolphin into the session I actually fell asleep!
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    That sounds very soothing.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    @Aspychata It is. Especially on horrificly bad days. Which are actually every Tuesday that I jave an appointment.
    UberScout
    Help me
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    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Have you had any motivation to do bushcraft stuff?
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    I think I can see on your profile that you are 27? It may be possible that there are some charities in your area that could help you move away and offer you support. I'm sorry, I don't have much knowledge about your specific situation, so I'm sorry if I'm repeating things others have said :-( It's certainly bad for your mental health living in circumstances that can change so rapidly and don't feel secure :-(
    UberScout
    UberScout
    I don't even want to leave anymore. I'd just burn myself out on that.
    UberScout
    I have had it with Charles constantly hogging my phone just because his never stays charged. I've had it with us having no money to get or do anything. I've had it with the monotony. I'm taking matters into my own hands whether I'm supposed to or not.
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    tree
    tree
    Yours is in better condition?
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Thank god
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sorry, l didn't know you were on SSI. Everything has gone up in price horribly. Alot of people on fixed incomes are struggling in my park. It's hard to see. Some places give you a new phone for switching. My boyfriend switched to Boost, they gave him a beautiful phone but charged him 25 dollars to get it up and running, and he paid one month of phone bill.
    UberScout
    [Kumo System]cmdline: Log --

    Used Item [Glacier Dust] + [Finwheat], successfully cured {Bulk Anger} status

    (Read: Kumo system is a psych system I "installed" to myself that turns my thinking process and progressive decision pathfinding into RPG logic. I got it from a subliminal combo I had to listen to 4 times... lol. Hey, if it works it works.)
    UberScout
    Wow. Family fighting 1st thing in the morning. Not surprised at all, this has desensitized me at this point; I don't become alert unless I hear something crash through the wall.
    tree
    tree
    Do you mean hear the sound of something crashing against the wall?

    Or do you mean objects making holes though the wall? @UberScout
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Not good. You sure go through a lot as young person. Not right at all.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Objects.

    @Aspychata Yeah. And all my mother has to say about it is "that's life, nothing you can do about it". Don't get me wrong, she means well... but she's actually been through more than I have.
    UberScout
    up and down i go with my depression
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Wishing for more stability for you, I know it is an elusive thing, but it is not unattainable.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    You're a staff member now...?
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Yes, I’m going to join the mod team. I thought they would want Huxley, but apparently it’s for humans only.
    UberScout
    turn me on dead man, turn it off
    tree
    tree
    Is that a reference to the ancient "Paul is dead" thing, regarding
    the Beatles? Or what?
    UberScout
    Suicidal thoughts cleared after sleep.New alignment: Neutral Evil.

    I can no longer tolerate how toxic my family is. They only have negative things to say both to me and about me. They are never happy with me. My mother has successfully pushed me into evil.
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