Verum! You are so lovely <3 Thank you for your supportive post! It's true my ex was a malignant narcissist and not able to feel anything. I hope I can one day truly believe, that there was/is nothing wrong with me!! It was all him! I am truly sorry that you had to experience that kind of abuse from your mother.. I hope you are somewhat over her and her abuse. You have been a good friend to me here, even though we haven't even known that long. Thank you <3