This blog is titled 'Creative Process' and is intended to be a study
done by me of how I think/my thought processes/'creativity.'
I nearly said "This blog is titled 'Creative Process' and is a study of the subject's
thoughts as perceived by the subject."
Either way works. The effect of the statements differ.
The person writing this blog mentions 'control' frequently.
Any successful work requires control.
Too much control hampers free expression.
Too little control results in sloppy production.
When I make a random generator, I am in control of what goes into it.
I am not in complete control because there are limitations to the site.
Although I don't like giving orders to other people, I like to be able to produce
an orderly body of work. Up to a point I enjoy being able to do what other
people want me to do, in a work related setting.
The idea of control is somehow related in my mind to dominance and subordination.
For reasons not entirely clear to me, this leads into the area of sexuality.
I am not interested in acting out scenes of masochism/sadism.
The theory of giving sexual orders or 'submitting' to them seems silly to me.
At the same time my thoughts return to the idea that it would be amazing for
another person to find me so willful that I should be restrained/tied up etc. But once
I imagine that I think...oh, but that would actually imply weakness within the so-called
'superior'/dominant/powerful one.
As a girl I used to fantasize handsome German boys, possibly with dueling scars
on their faces. They may or may not have been Nazis. I think they were Nazis.
Not for any actual interactions. Not for purposes of masturbation. Just to admire.
That was at age 14. Two years prior I liked to look at pictures of angels before I
went to sleep. Both of these, the soldier & the angel, are power archetypes.
I was an angel in a school Christmas play in elementary school.
I wouldn't join Girl Scouts because of the uniforms.
I dislike rigidity and uniformity.
I like stability and consistency.
I enjoy producing a new item.
To make something new requires adjustment/repositioning elements.
That is what I like about random generators: the ability to put things
next to each other and come up with a new result.
done by me of how I think/my thought processes/'creativity.'
I nearly said "This blog is titled 'Creative Process' and is a study of the subject's
thoughts as perceived by the subject."
Either way works. The effect of the statements differ.
The person writing this blog mentions 'control' frequently.
Any successful work requires control.
Too much control hampers free expression.
Too little control results in sloppy production.
When I make a random generator, I am in control of what goes into it.
I am not in complete control because there are limitations to the site.
Although I don't like giving orders to other people, I like to be able to produce
an orderly body of work. Up to a point I enjoy being able to do what other
people want me to do, in a work related setting.
The idea of control is somehow related in my mind to dominance and subordination.
For reasons not entirely clear to me, this leads into the area of sexuality.
I am not interested in acting out scenes of masochism/sadism.
The theory of giving sexual orders or 'submitting' to them seems silly to me.
At the same time my thoughts return to the idea that it would be amazing for
another person to find me so willful that I should be restrained/tied up etc. But once
I imagine that I think...oh, but that would actually imply weakness within the so-called
'superior'/dominant/powerful one.
As a girl I used to fantasize handsome German boys, possibly with dueling scars
on their faces. They may or may not have been Nazis. I think they were Nazis.
Not for any actual interactions. Not for purposes of masturbation. Just to admire.
That was at age 14. Two years prior I liked to look at pictures of angels before I
went to sleep. Both of these, the soldier & the angel, are power archetypes.
I was an angel in a school Christmas play in elementary school.
I wouldn't join Girl Scouts because of the uniforms.
I dislike rigidity and uniformity.
I like stability and consistency.
I enjoy producing a new item.
To make something new requires adjustment/repositioning elements.
That is what I like about random generators: the ability to put things
next to each other and come up with a new result.
