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I just don't care anymore

Title says it all. I'm just gonna buy drinks and bars and call them meals...stuff like carnation breakfast drinks, bolthouse protein drinks, veggie/fruit drinks, meal bars, that sort of thing. I have no motivation to even eat but my body doesn't agree with me, so bars and drinks it is. This is such a horrible Christmas season. I feel so unwanted, unneeded. I don't feel well so that doesn't help either. At least hiding all the cuts on my upper arms is easy, its been cold lately. Granted even if I left a few in view I still don't think anybody would notice.

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Rest assured that you are both wanted and needed here, Kari. If it helps you, I myself spent Christmas Day 1987 not only excluded, but physically kicked out of the house with the doors locked behind me. I sat in a chair by our detached workshop, shivering, watching the smoke curl out of the chimney. I was 13 years old. I hope things get better for you.
 

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