so, I guess I don't know what to do at this point.
after talking with the counselor the other day, and her confirming that I do match a lot of the traits of aspergers, but her saying that she wouldn't "put that label" on me because she didn't think I matched enough of them, I was a bit frustrated. most of the reason she said that was because she doesn't know enough about my childhood, and said that even the information I can give her is indeterminate, because there's no way to tell whether it was aspergers, or a reaction to my abusive and chaotic environment.
well, I know about me. I know about how I grew up and what I went through. after doing the research I've done, and talking to people, I know what's happening in my own head. I've always identified as autistic, from the time I even knew what autism was. I know me better than anyone else, so i made the decision to just get the bravery to say it. I said it to my husband, my mom, my grandparents. I'm Autistic, and I'm proud of it.
so, now I'm at a disconnect. my counselor has been talking about working on the coping mechanisms I need to develop from the perspective of assuming that I'm similar enough to aspergers that many of the same methods will help. but, how on earth do I tell a counselor that doesn't believe that I have AS that I identify as Autistic, and that's where I'm at? how can i make them understand?
some of my family is understanding, some isn't. some of my friends are, some aren't. I wish I could make them understand.
I'm learning to accept what I've come to understand. I'm proud of who I am, regardless of what they say. but, I'm frustrated.
beyond that, I've got to get these meds adjusted this week. I feel like I want to jump out of my skin, to scream, to run in no particular direction. something's gotta change here.
after talking with the counselor the other day, and her confirming that I do match a lot of the traits of aspergers, but her saying that she wouldn't "put that label" on me because she didn't think I matched enough of them, I was a bit frustrated. most of the reason she said that was because she doesn't know enough about my childhood, and said that even the information I can give her is indeterminate, because there's no way to tell whether it was aspergers, or a reaction to my abusive and chaotic environment.
well, I know about me. I know about how I grew up and what I went through. after doing the research I've done, and talking to people, I know what's happening in my own head. I've always identified as autistic, from the time I even knew what autism was. I know me better than anyone else, so i made the decision to just get the bravery to say it. I said it to my husband, my mom, my grandparents. I'm Autistic, and I'm proud of it.
so, now I'm at a disconnect. my counselor has been talking about working on the coping mechanisms I need to develop from the perspective of assuming that I'm similar enough to aspergers that many of the same methods will help. but, how on earth do I tell a counselor that doesn't believe that I have AS that I identify as Autistic, and that's where I'm at? how can i make them understand?
some of my family is understanding, some isn't. some of my friends are, some aren't. I wish I could make them understand.
I'm learning to accept what I've come to understand. I'm proud of who I am, regardless of what they say. but, I'm frustrated.
beyond that, I've got to get these meds adjusted this week. I feel like I want to jump out of my skin, to scream, to run in no particular direction. something's gotta change here.
