A bit of a "lightbulb" moment.
It's 02.56hrs, in the North West of the UK. Clear, starry skies with just enough wisp of cloud cover to prevent frost.
I'm awake after five hours uninterrupted sleep and grateful for those few precious hours (story for another day)
Lightbulb moment:
It's only just occurred to me that all things sensory with the potential to overwhelm are absent throughout the night.
It seems blindingly obvious now that a tendency toward preferring to be awake at night, almost "coming alive" at night, getting excited, having some of my best ideas, the freedom to fully explore and map out those ideas creative or otherwise with no external pressure or distraction, lack of hustle and bustle of day light hours and people appears to be soothing.
There's also the added bonus of a freedom to just be myself in the peace and tranquility of night time. I'd throw in the word 'mindfulness' too.
I am more capable of mindfulness in the quiet of the night. Being of a somewhat neurotic and anxious disposition, relaxation benefits my system.
I am less anxious about many things during the night.
This enjoyment goes against fourty odd years of training that there must be something wrong with me because I don't fall asleep at a routine hour and wake bright and breezy, wash, dress, eat breakfast and spend the best part of the day at work.
Only having stumbled across suspected aspie-ness much later in life and as oblivious as this may sound, I wasn't aware there was a valid reason day time environmental input had me craving, chasing and escaping to the quiet of the night.
It's only when I hang my behaviours and habits on an aspie-framework do they make any sense, or at least the reasoning and drive behind them seems logical to me.
Feeling empowered with this information, I suspect I will hunt down the skills and practices required to turn my nights into days. That is to say create for myself the sort of environment during the day that I naturally find at night time.
(We evolved with a pineal gland for good reason - as humans we are programmed to rest and repair at night time during sleep)
It's 02.56hrs, in the North West of the UK. Clear, starry skies with just enough wisp of cloud cover to prevent frost.
I'm awake after five hours uninterrupted sleep and grateful for those few precious hours (story for another day)
Lightbulb moment:
It's only just occurred to me that all things sensory with the potential to overwhelm are absent throughout the night.
It seems blindingly obvious now that a tendency toward preferring to be awake at night, almost "coming alive" at night, getting excited, having some of my best ideas, the freedom to fully explore and map out those ideas creative or otherwise with no external pressure or distraction, lack of hustle and bustle of day light hours and people appears to be soothing.
There's also the added bonus of a freedom to just be myself in the peace and tranquility of night time. I'd throw in the word 'mindfulness' too.
I am more capable of mindfulness in the quiet of the night. Being of a somewhat neurotic and anxious disposition, relaxation benefits my system.
I am less anxious about many things during the night.
This enjoyment goes against fourty odd years of training that there must be something wrong with me because I don't fall asleep at a routine hour and wake bright and breezy, wash, dress, eat breakfast and spend the best part of the day at work.
Only having stumbled across suspected aspie-ness much later in life and as oblivious as this may sound, I wasn't aware there was a valid reason day time environmental input had me craving, chasing and escaping to the quiet of the night.
It's only when I hang my behaviours and habits on an aspie-framework do they make any sense, or at least the reasoning and drive behind them seems logical to me.
Feeling empowered with this information, I suspect I will hunt down the skills and practices required to turn my nights into days. That is to say create for myself the sort of environment during the day that I naturally find at night time.
(We evolved with a pineal gland for good reason - as humans we are programmed to rest and repair at night time during sleep)
