Back to "normal"

I can so relate. I sometimes wish I had a friend who was half as caring a friends as I am.

I think we are "overdoing" care most of the time and are never sure how much is enough. We just care times hundred. It's exhausting. But at the same time, if we meet someone who cares even a little bit - there is no end to gratitude and appreciation. Does that sound right?

Very important comment that I can relate to. A few years ago I went through a series of health and business crises. It was a very effective way to find out who my friends were. As a result of that I have eliminated 90% of my so-called friends (not that I had allot of them - something like 10 total). Although it was a very painful way to find out about these relationships, I am grateful for the information. And also I do not have to respond to most people now. I have 2 people I consider friends, and one of them lives 17 hours by jet from here

Yes, it's true, a lot of people choose to not be involved and withdraw when you are going through hard times. This is what hurts the most and never stops hurting. I myself can withdraw emotionally from sensory overload and weird people out, even offend someone, but I will always find other ways to express loyalty and friendship. It is also hard for me to say "I love you" or nice pleasing things and praise in general, even to someone I do love, so my "other" ways of genuine caring are not perceived as caring. Ah, it only makes me depressed to think about it. I want to focus on the people who do care no matter how difficult I am in close communication.