Being who you want to be

I have been stressed. Very very stressed. School is hard as always, therapy has been a mess (sorry for so many threads there won't be another therapy one for at least 4 days but most likely a week+), and I am having trouble going with the flow. When I get this stressed sometimes I act in ways I would not like in others. Mostly in how I go in circles in my head and how I self pity a lot. Most of my hardships are unchangeable but I never like the occasions when it becomes so much I become hard to be around. Sometimes I forget I am still so young or that I have had it easier than others. While I don't like comparisons I make my own so I must have others to counteract and balance all the thoughts that come up. Tomorrow will hopefully be better and today was not bad I just still feel the effects of yesterday. I want to be who I want to be but that is more than just unmasking it's also living in line with my values and moral code and I hope to think about that more. Stress at transitions in life is common I have to remember that as well even for me who is not dealing with what others my age have to I mean things are also changing for me. I sat in the front seat of a car today and learned about mirrors and gas pedals...I have forgotten most of it but that is normal for me. My mother said she will start taking me out for drives where she narrates what she is doing so I can notice things. This stuff takes a long time and lots of repetition but it's good yet scary to take the first step. My mother is right though when she says that driving will really help with independence.