When a pipe dream poisons existence.

[Vesta]

As a child, I had formed a fix-it idea that fame would come to me someday, but not now, but later. Years passed, and I continued to live in dreams of the future, believing that the present did not matter and one should just wait it out. It seemed to me that soon a very different, special life would begin. I made rash actions, as if I were the main character of the movie, confident in the inevitability of predestined success.However, with time came the realization that it is almost unrealistic to become famous. And yet I continue to live my life as if hoping for it, disconnected from the real world. I don't know how to completely get rid of this illusion. If I stop believing in my star, a vacuum will form inside me.However, with time came the realization that it is almost unrealistic to become famous. And yet, I continue to live, as if hoping for it, detaching myself from the real world. I don't know how to get rid of this illusion. If I stop believing in my star, a vacuum will form inside me.

 

[RemyZee]

It may be that Fame isn't all it's cracked up to be. If you become famous, you might find it wasn't what you wanted in the first place.

 

[Rocco]

I had a similar dream for too many years of my life. For me it is probably more the belief that amazing things were just around the corner.
I spent decades believing things would really improve soon or in the next few days/weeks/months. One day I realized half of my life passed me by and I had been kind of unaware and possibly dissociated that many things I wanted and waited for came and went already, except great wealth and fame.
After working around and for several very famous people I quickly realized I wanted no part of fame. Well maybe the material wealth and security that comes with it.
I still want the financial security but I am glad to just be an average person. I highly value my privacy and alone time.

If you look at the rise and fall of various famous people there are many dangers involved along with things that would feel invasive to most aspies.
Would you really want people hounding you went in public, or following you around and reporting on your every move?
The stalkers of famous people can be very disturbed and creepy. Some are harmless but some are terrifying.

The vacuum is real but if you let it all go and just live your life, things will be better. Or maybe I am just still being hopeful.

TL/DR
Similar/same. The fantasy or delusion in having a dream of fame can be counterproductive and unhealthy to fixate on. Fame is not all it’s cracked up to be.

 

[Jumpinbare]

I have literally never wanted to be famous. I always wanted to be as near invisible as possible.

 

[Vesta]

As a child, I had formed a fix-it idea that fame would come to me someday, but not now, but later. Years passed, and I continued to live in dreams of the future, believing that the present did not matter and one should just wait it out. It seemed to me that soon a very different, special life would begin. I made rash actions, as if I were the main character of the movie, confident in the inevitability of predestined success.However, with time came the realization that it is almost unrealistic to become famous. And yet I continue to live my life as if hoping for it, disconnected from the real world. I don't know how to completely get rid of this illusion. If I stop believing in my star, a vacuum will form inside me.However, with time came the realization that it is almost unrealistic to become famous. And yet, I continue to live, as if hoping for it, detaching myself from the real world. I don't know how to get rid of this illusion. If I stop believing in my star, a vacuum will form inside me.

At that time, I wasn't too bothered. Although I generally don't like attention in everyday life, I just wanted to leave some kind of mark in the world so that I wouldn’t be forgotten.
I had some pretty silly dreams and desires. It's just a shame that I wasted so much time holding onto that hope in my head instead of growing as a normal person and becoming a complete individual