What a school year this has been

[Dillon]

I’ve have not been on here for quite some time due to many things going on.
so I have completed my first year at A&M and I can say it was not how I intended. The classes and professors were great no problem with that....but it was the whole experience in making friends with the right people who don’t make you feel like you are a nobody.

I haven’t had anyone include me in anything no matter how hard I try to just be myself and what not. I’ve felt excluded in group projects and also never get invited with any of my other friends when they go do something fun and I’m always stuck in my dorm since I don’t have a car as of yet. I’ve had some people say nasty things to me to the point I feel like I am about to cry.
I joined a couple organizations such as the fishing club in which I competed in tournaments and learned about the rules and regulations of fishing and its environment. It was good except many people there were jerks towards me for no reason so I quit going. There was a Christian church group on campus in which I really enjoy attending. I joined late in the year so I only attended a few times so far but I knew five people within the church group who I thought were really good friends of mine until I realized wherever they went I was always left behind it especially hurt me when they came up to me and said they were going to get something to eat but I couldn’t come with them.

I’ve started loosing people telling me how weird and awkward I was to be around. I sit around thinking that I’ve never done anything to you but be nice and to be an actual friend but yet they want to call me out like everything was my fault
It came to the point I had been in a depressed state for a month in April because people made me feel worthless and such. People at that school have been seeing me as I don’t belong and maybe I don’t. Sure I’m not perfect, don’t have a relationship or anything like that but I am who I am and that’s that
I truly hope this next school year will be a lot better...

 

[Thinx]

Sorry to hear how tough this has been for you. I think it can be pretty hard to mix in if you're unusual in any way and it sounds like you have done your best to include yourself. I hope you are enjoying the classes and studying, and that maybe your abilities will gain you respect as you progress. Lots of interesting and successful people were not appreciated at college unfortunately. Maybe join a group you have to be clever to join, if there are any?

 

[FreeDiver]

I can see why your professors would be great. They are paid to do a job, just like a salesperson. I'll bet if you eavesdrop on them, They'll be saying bad things about you behind your back. As far as the Christian church groups go. They're nothing but a bunch of hypocrites. They talk the talk, but never walk the walk. These losers do nothing but give the faith a bad name. They treat it like a fad instead of a real commitment.

My advice to you. If classes are going good. Just get through it and get your degree and as far as everyone else goes? To hell with them. Don't waste your time with it.

 

[Dillon]

Right! Lately I have not been caring anymore. People can say all they want but it’s not going to affect my life, they don’t know what I’ve been through as far as being an aspie.

 

[Panthro]

You said you go to A&M which I assume to be Texas A&M? Do they have any clubs or organizations for on the spectrum students? If you dont know of any, maybe you could seek this place out and find out if they have anything for high functioning adults:
Center for Autism and Related Disorders (CARD), Inc.

My school has one of these CARD organizations and they gave me referrals.

 

[DCA]

I found going to a big university a lot more socially isolating than a small one. I started out at Kutztown University, a small state school in Pennsylvania. I transferred after my freshman year to Penn State main campus. I had a MUCH more challenging time making friends at Penn State & its 27,000 students than at Kutztown with its 5,000 (at the time) students. Not exactly sure why, or maybe I was just lucky at Kutztown & not lucky at Penn State? Or it could have just been the reaction to going to such a large university...