Dillon
Well-Known Member
What was suppose to be a start to a good new year turned into grieving. I lost a best friend of mine named Luke who had been with me for 6 years until he was overwhelmed from an aggressive type of metastatic lung cancer.
My dog has been with me on various adventure such as living near the beach where he would love to swim in the water and play ball. He also loved to go fishing with me where I if he was feeling better next week was going to take him out near a creek to explore but that wasn’t a good idea since his health was deteriorating. We also weathered a ice/snow storm one year of February where my power in one instance had been out for 3 days so we stayed at a hotel that was not only dog friendly but warm too until our power came back on and the weather calmed down. Luke is a sociable dog you would ever meet where he liked to meet anyone just wagging his tail away. His favorite food he enjoyed was eating zucchini squash acts like that’s the best thing in the world.
These are just some of the qualities of my dog but these aspects were just dwindling back in the first week of December where the vet found a large tumor in the lower lobe of his chest that was causing respiratory distress and lethargy. As of Thursday I stayed with my dog while he was being euthanatized saying my final good byes. Now I am just feeling grief and even more so as this is my first personal death experience involving a member of the family. I’ve cried multiple times at home even called out his name while also realizing he’s no longer with me.
I know there are people out there say who say “oh he/she is just a pet” but they are soooo much more than that I believe. I feel the attachment is pretty strong that I may have emotions running for quite a while. Has anyone ever gone through something like this with their beloved animal? Did you feel guilt in yourself such as why did I not catch this sooner or I should’ve done more for him/her? I do feel some guilt in a way just thinking what more could I have done to prolong his life but to me that just wouldn’t be fair for someone one already suffering and for that I’m glad he’s finally at peace and not in anymore pain.
Here is a pic of my dog who I will cherish forever.
My dog has been with me on various adventure such as living near the beach where he would love to swim in the water and play ball. He also loved to go fishing with me where I if he was feeling better next week was going to take him out near a creek to explore but that wasn’t a good idea since his health was deteriorating. We also weathered a ice/snow storm one year of February where my power in one instance had been out for 3 days so we stayed at a hotel that was not only dog friendly but warm too until our power came back on and the weather calmed down. Luke is a sociable dog you would ever meet where he liked to meet anyone just wagging his tail away. His favorite food he enjoyed was eating zucchini squash acts like that’s the best thing in the world.
These are just some of the qualities of my dog but these aspects were just dwindling back in the first week of December where the vet found a large tumor in the lower lobe of his chest that was causing respiratory distress and lethargy. As of Thursday I stayed with my dog while he was being euthanatized saying my final good byes. Now I am just feeling grief and even more so as this is my first personal death experience involving a member of the family. I’ve cried multiple times at home even called out his name while also realizing he’s no longer with me.
I know there are people out there say who say “oh he/she is just a pet” but they are soooo much more than that I believe. I feel the attachment is pretty strong that I may have emotions running for quite a while. Has anyone ever gone through something like this with their beloved animal? Did you feel guilt in yourself such as why did I not catch this sooner or I should’ve done more for him/her? I do feel some guilt in a way just thinking what more could I have done to prolong his life but to me that just wouldn’t be fair for someone one already suffering and for that I’m glad he’s finally at peace and not in anymore pain.
Here is a pic of my dog who I will cherish forever.
