How do you feel?

[Fridgemagnetman]

How do I feel?

Like i am Legion pre pig.

I'm going to treat myself to a ramble.

In my own head I describe myself as 'legion pre-pig' it's a reference to my repetitive thought processes (a lot of regrets,figuring out past conversations with my answers given or not given, invented potential scenarios of who I might meet etc) the image I have is of jesus casting out the demons and they went into a herd of pigs and ran off a cliff.

but what this actually is, is a repetitive thought process I engage in, a form of rehearsal in case anyone asks me the right question which would be something like 'what's going on in your head? How do you experience the world?
Absolutely not going to be asked that but if it gets anywhere similar I will try to answer , perhaps even if they say , how do you feel? 'Legion pre pig'

Sort of if they think I'm weird, may as well add to their impression...
Also it's obscure enough that it appeals to my sense of humour..
Which is even funnier when I consider that humour is supposed to be shared and me saying legion pre pig is against sort of humour punchline rules...
So I find that funny as its so obscure that no one will possibly get it.

So now imagine lots of conflicting stories,scenarios events going round and round. Conversations never said,past ones re-done.
And people wonder why I get tired.
People have completely disappeared from my life that I didn't realise until ten years later that what I said was ambiguous and they took it in an offensive way
So they'll ask me how I'm doing instead of saying the above in depth I'll say 'okay'

How do you feel?

 

[Grandmother B]

How do I feel?

Like i am Legion pre pig.

I'm going to treat myself to a ramble.

In my own head I describe myself as 'legion pre-pig' it's a reference to my repetitive thought processes (a lot of regrets,figuring out past conversations with my answers given or not given, invented potential scenarios of who I might meet etc) the image I have is of jesus casting out the demons and they went into a herd of pigs and ran off a cliff.

but what this actually is, is a repetitive thought process I engage in, a form of rehearsal in case anyone asks me the right question which would be something like 'what's going on in your head? How do you experience the world?
Absolutely not going to be asked that but if it gets anywhere similar I will try to answer , perhaps even if they say , how do you feel? 'Legion pre pig'

Sort of if they think I'm weird, may as well add to their impression...
Also it's obscure enough that it appeals to my sense of humour..
Which is even funnier when I consider that humour is supposed to be shared and me saying legion pre pig is against sort of humour punchline rules...
So I find that funny as its so obscure that no one will possibly get it.

So now imagine lots of conflicting stories,scenarios events going round and round. Conversations never said,past ones re-done.
And people wonder why I get tired.
People have completely disappeared from my life that I didn't realise until ten years later that what I said was ambiguous and they took it in an offensive way
So they'll ask me how I'm doing instead of saying the above in depth I'll say 'okay'

How do you feel?

I do get the Legion pre-pig thing! I knew immediately what you were talking about. Take a look at www.aspergerexperts.com and see if they might have any information that would help you to understand a little more about your thought processes and how to move forward if you feel stuck in that. Good luck and God bless....Grandmother B

 

[gregmcph]

I once read that one reason people like music and comedy is that our brains are wired to predict things.
We get joy when we visualise what is coming in the future, and then we get it right. So we like the beats and the verse-chorus repetition. We also get a thrill when our prediction urge gets tricked. A key change in the song, the punchline in a joke.

We love predicting. We do it all the time. Figuring out how everything in the day might work out.

I think that Aspies have that more on the surface. It's happening more in our consciousness mind than tucked away in the multitasking subconscious as happens with others.

 

[Sabrina]

Ugly

 

[Butterfly88]

Ugly

It's what's in the inside that matters and I know that isn't ugly.

 

[Sabrina]

Thank you @Butterfly88 I don’t feel ugly anymore. Just at the verge of crying for anything.

 

[Alan tm]

I don't know , Isolated with a depression on top .
Aspie depressed . How much more shut off can I be .

I'm also physically isolated.

I'm distant at best, getting sick of it .
I don't even think a forum is a place for me .

 

[LucyPurrs]

I don't know , Isolated with a depression on top .
Aspie depressed . How much more shut off can I be .

I'm also physically isolated.

I'm distant at best, getting sick of it .
I don't even think a forum is a place for me .

Why don't you start a post thread? The people here are so supportive. I'm so sorry you're feeling down. Do you know what might help you to feel better?

 

[Alan tm]

I'm out of what might make things better .

I live like a robot .

Things I liked have shut down and vanished around me .
Work , hobbies.

Relationships haven't worked out .
The rare time I'm ever held by people I feel nothing .

I give very little as a person in the way of emotion.

Strange things keep happening .
I'm surrounded by deaths and suicides .

I don't even know if I have any emotions about that .

Self harm is out as an option as it would be too obvious to people .
I'm to out of reason to even bother with that .

I don't even bother to show how I feel around me .

I'm here to perform a set of functions till I die ,then some one else will do them
It's no loss

 

[Gracey]

Almost reaching the precipice.

Some self help books suggest getting involved with activity, interact with others will lift mood.

I need to withdraw and recharge.
I am ‘gived-out’
Not much left to give.
Teary, weary and shutting down.