Mono
Well-Known Member
I have a question about compulsion related to personal items with sentimental value. This seems to be an issue for me that wasn't there 5-10 years ago. For an example; my dad got me a cool/rare figure back in the early 90s that I still have. Or at least, I think I do. About 10 years ago, I found another one online and could not resist buying it. A few weeks later I was like, why did I buy that? I already have one. So I sold that second one. But now, 10 years later, I'm starting to wonder if I sold the second one, or the one I already had for close to 20 years and actually means something to me. Something similar happened to me with some comics I got mixed up very recently, I feel like stared at and compared them several times over a few hours to make sure I got it right.
I know me, I would have triple-checked before selling one of the figures. I also remember I found a way to tell them apart even then. Personally I am convinced I kept the one I already had. But my compulsions seems to want to retroactively make sure, which is something I can't do. It's ruining my enjoyment of the fig so much that I feel like getting rid of it. So I can stop wondering and be done with the compulsion. But I won't.
Things are going really well for me, in all my adult life I've never had it as good as I do now. Very little to worry about. It wouldn't be the first time my compulsion would jump to something else to try and get me to worry about something. In the grand scheme of things, it seems to really be scraping the bottom of the barrel. Still, I wonder if anyone here has any advice to stop questioning myself? There might be something I can use in similar cases.
I know me, I would have triple-checked before selling one of the figures. I also remember I found a way to tell them apart even then. Personally I am convinced I kept the one I already had. But my compulsions seems to want to retroactively make sure, which is something I can't do. It's ruining my enjoyment of the fig so much that I feel like getting rid of it. So I can stop wondering and be done with the compulsion. But I won't.
Things are going really well for me, in all my adult life I've never had it as good as I do now. Very little to worry about. It wouldn't be the first time my compulsion would jump to something else to try and get me to worry about something. In the grand scheme of things, it seems to really be scraping the bottom of the barrel. Still, I wonder if anyone here has any advice to stop questioning myself? There might be something I can use in similar cases.
