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Metalhead

Metalhead

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Metal health will drive you mad! 46 From Bedlam
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  • Metalhead
    I took a dose of Turmeric and swallowed it with some 100% tart cherry juice an hour ago. Now I am able to walk again.
    Metalhead
    I am still totally pissed off. Not much I can do about that. I wonder if I could have said something differently to him, but he made his choice, so damn him.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    It makes sense to wonder if you could have changed things, but this is not your fault in any way. Thoughts about what you could have done differently will creep in - this is just one of the heavy burdens that those who lose someone to suicide get stuck with. It is part of what makes it so hard for those who are left living. It is part of why we can feel angry when someone we care about takes their life.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sorry for your anger that you are feeling. Sorry that he took his life. This was sad. On so many different levels. I hope you forgive him.
    Metalhead
    Now my knee pain has gone down, and I have intense pain on the sole of my left foot. If it is not one thing, it is another and it never seems to end.
    Judge
    Judge
    Gout "travels". Have you drowned yourself in organic black cherry juice yet? One simple way to speed up recovery. Sounds like you are still consuming purines that are going to give you such problems. Even symptoms of Metatarsalgia can involve gout in the soles of your feet.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Oh boy. Sorry to read this.
    Metalhead
    Suicide is the one sin God does not forgive. I hate that I now lost two people I knew to that route. Why do some people have to be that damn selfish?
    M
    Mr. Stevens
    They lose sight of all reality, I think.
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    @Mr. Stevens It pretty well is a majority that. I know my thoughts, in the past, went that direction because of my insesent want to be anything but alive. I lost sight of reality and any sense of belonging to anything.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Suicide frees the one who takes their life, but leaves the rest of us to bear the sorrow, the confusion, the anger, and the desperation. It is very difficult to be the one left living.
    Metalhead
    I just found out a friend of mine who I was worried about due to his mental health issues is dead. He most likely did something stupid.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sad.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    I agree with Aspychata, very sad. It's very difficult to lose ones we care about in this way.
    Metalhead
    I feel like going to the mini mart next door to my office and buying something high in sugar and low in nutritional value. That would be counterproductive to my plans to keep losing weight, however.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Are you feeling stressed, or depressed perhaps? Are you reaching for food for covering up some feelings?
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    I am feeling like I need to replace beer with another vice, frankly.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Okay, l get that.
    Metalhead
    Thanks to everybody here. I needed to vent, you all let me vent. Now it is time for me to focus on solutions instead of the problem.
    Metalhead
    I am aware that a large part of my depression is caused by chemical imbalances. I am not going to do anything stupid because I have that knowledge in mind. I talk to my doctor on Tuesday.
    M
    Mr. Stevens
    I hope it's productive. I'm glad you're here and writing your movie reviews!
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    That is a huge and important realization, @Metalhead. Thank you for your reassurance that you will be safe.
    Ghostinthemachine
    Ghostinthemachine
    Good man and keep up the reviews I love them
    Metalhead
    I am feeling so alone right now. My knee hurts, otherwise I would be paying a cover charge and seeing a live band right now instead of sitting here feeling miserable.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sorry to hear this. Medically, you have gone through the washing machine for quite a few cycles. Are you a candidate for knee replacement? I live in a state that does nothing but endless amounts of knee replacement, cataracts surgery, and viagra refills. :)
    Metalhead
    I get the sense that most of the people I associate with locally might be very happy if I just died.
    tree
    tree
    These sound like people who don't deserve to associate with you.
    Metalhead
    Nobody in my blood family is on my side. Nobody in the 12 step circles is on my side. Arthritis makes the commute to my office impossible sometimes. And nobody cares about that except my doctor.
    Metalhead
    My life is a string of regrets. I need a new job and a new life in a new location. Time to stop talking and start taking action.
    Metalhead
    I just spent $700 on two new pairs of eyeglasses along with a new prescription. Damn, I feel that fiscal pain of that much cash leaving me at once.
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    M
    Mr. Stevens
    I feel you. I had to spend almost the same at the dentist two days ago. Not fun.
    Gerald Wilgus
    Gerald Wilgus
    I am a fan of COSTCO. I brought two pairs from them. Nice quality glasses for less than $400. My hearing aids through COSTCO also were a fraction of the cost than through an audiologist practice and has great features.
    jellyfish
    jellyfish
    I got two pairs for 49.99.
    Metalhead
    I am feeling an intense craving for marijuana. I shall deny myself. Winter will be over in a couple of months, anyway.
    tree
    tree
    Got any cookies? Peanut butter or cheese? Fruit?
    Some cold bubble water? Yogurt? And a little fresh air?
    Some of the above, at least?
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    I have some fruit and Greek yogurt.
    Metalhead
    I want to go on a long walk on a sunny beach and listen to the waves crash. Ah, vacation cannot come quickly enough for me.
    Gerald Wilgus
    Gerald Wilgus
    Oooooohhhh. I'd love to be beneath the waves enjoying all the life on a coral reef.
    Metalhead
    Watching a reality TV series about animal hoarders. It totally is exploiting mental illness. Yet I still keep watching it. It’s quite sleazy.
    T
    thejuice
    yep like all reality tv :(
    tree
    tree
    I don't think I cd bear seeing animal hoarding, the conditions, and misery.

    Ordinary hoarding, sure.
    Hoarding: Buried Alive.
    That I will have on while I am sorting stuff, for instance.
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