I'm glad to be able to experience joy again. It's been a long time--This year is the first year it really kicked back in. But I realize I don't know what it's like to really want something deeply. Now imagine re-evaluating career choices made in the middle of a depressive episode you mistook for a healthy mindset...
You realize you don't know what your own desires are, so when people ask you "follow your dream" you want to kick them up the arse for being a silly fool.